Warning! Gross over use of quotation marks.

The plight of a crusader

I have apparently appointed myself as the office advocate. I’m not sure when this happened or if it is even wanted. I realize that I have done this my entire life, first with my siblings, then with friends, and now my co-workers. No one has asked me to speak up and/or fight for them; I just took it upon myself to do so and they let me. I took their “Lack of disagreement” as acceptance. I assume this was born from the “Lack in Fear of Rejection” when asking for or going after something I want. Right now what I want is change. We, my co-workers and I, all want change. We need change in our office. There is a serious imbalance of workloads in our office, which has caused a tremendous amount of stress and a serious morale shift. This I cannot stand for and therefore on behalf of all my co-workers I demanded change. What I got in return was a shitty attitude and two worthless discussions straight out of the “How to be a good manager” book. I was quickly shut down and it made me feel like shit. I had to take on the full weight of that Ass-o-holicness alone. I would like to think that my “crusading” achieved something, but I don’t believe it did. The only good thing I got out of it was the fact that I spoke my mind, I expressed my issues and solutions to the subject(s) it was meant for and now I feel like I have the right to openly complain. My manager did apologize later for the attitude, we talked some shit out, but what I got from the conversation is “I hear what you’re saying, but I’m not changing this bullshit”. Have a nice day, fuck you very much,

Here is my “plight”. As self appointed advocate I often find that I am going at this ALONE. My co-workers come to me and “vent” getting me all riled up, which is not hard to do, and then I go running to management with my war paint on, sword held high, demanding change, and when I turn around, there is no one standing behind me. WTF. I have been used like a $2 whore. This all ends now. While I have a definite problem with the way management runs the office, I do not have a problem working around the bullshit. All of my work is caught up. I have no problem keeping up and in fact have begun helping my co-workers get caught up. So from now own, it’s me, myself, and I. I only worry about me. If I have a problem, I go directly to management on my own behalf and that’s only if I can’t find a work around. No longer is anyone aloud so sit at my desk and “Vent”. I gots my own shit to deal with. So management from now on you don’t have to worry about the little crusader, I am retiring my sword and shield and will attempt to be the quiet little worker bee you are trying to turn me into. 

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