Where I Want to Be…

~So the first three weeks of school have flown by. I’m not sure if this is a good or bad thing yet, but needless to say, I’ve had a ton of homework already, I’m not excited for the rest to come!!! My MBA classes are really kicking my ass right now.  My Managerial Economics class has been turned into a research class which i have to do a 4 page paper each week for the first 5 weeks of class including 2 scholarly journals and 1 table and 1 figure in the paper… This is really difficult espeically when you can’t find 2 reviews that express the viewpoint that your trying to write about.  My other MBA class is Alternative Dispute Resolution and I love the class its just a lot of reading.  Like 100 pages each week so that’s pretty much killing me cuz I’m not a quick reader… guess what I’m doing all day tomorrow!!

~On the job front, I did get the internship mentioned in my last entry and it is going pretty good.  Most of it is data entry which is me sitting in front of a computer all day, easy, but boring.  I haven’t done a ton with the HR side yet but I have loved what I have done! Hopefully next week I get to do more HR stuff… I guess we’ll find out… my other job is going pretty good.  I’m not there too much anymore because of my internship and school and I do my everyone a ton so I don’t mind working all the time anymore…

~Totally chaning the subject… So for most of the summer I’ve been kinda seeing this guy, lets call him farmboy (he’s a farmer hence the name).  Farmboy and I have only hung out probably 6 times, including the night I met him.  And honestly, I never thought I would be interested in him.  1. He’s a farmer, I am not a farm girl. 2. He’s got a reputation with women (like he’s been with quite a few of them) 3. My best friend (who introduced us) said that he would never be able to give me the attention I need so don’t waste my time… So based on all this, I shouldn’t be interested right??? WRONG.  He’s good looking, not as tall as I would like him to be, but at least he is taller than me, and he’s pretty built (I do have a thing for guys with muscles…) I think I only gave him my number because I had been drinking… and i didn’t even have that much but i get really really confident when I have alcohol… He actually didn’t text me the next day.  So I had completely written him off… but a few days later he did and we talk about every 2 weeks or so. So the last 2 times we’ve hung out, I’ve stayed over night at his place (he lives about 50 minutes away and it just makes sense for me to stay there and don’t worry he hasn’t gotten lucky yet… and he won’t get lucky for quite some time…) The first time I stayed there, we had a great time and I had to leave really early to get to work by 6:30 AM… so we really didn’t talk too much and there was no reason too… I not really sure where our "relationship" is going and I wasn’t going to push the issue…So I ended up staying by him again on Thursday night.  We did end up talking a lot then.  Some of his responses surprised me and others did not.  He told me that he likes me but he’s not sure about our differences… We do have a lot of differences but we also share many of the same values and morals which to me is way more important than interests… We get along really well, and we like spending time together… So needless to say, I’m not sure where things are headed.  I do think that I will see him again… I’m just not sure when.  He told me that he was going to take me out on a real date soon… but who knows… I haven’t 100% fallen for this guy, but I’m not going to be doing anything with anyone else until I know for sure what’s going on. Ijust hope that I’m not wasting my time when there could be someone already knocking on my door.  Right now I don’t think there is anyone else, but you never know.  I’m not really sure what to do.  When I’m with farmboy, everything feels so right.  There’s no where else i’d rather be… I love waking up next to him, and talking with him, and just being around him.  Its so comfortable… I’ve never felt like that with anyone else.  The other thing is that he’s been really respectful of me and my body and my wishes… That also shocked me.  So I don’t know what will happen, but I can’t wait to find out…

~Only 3 weeks till my brother’s wedding… yay…still not excited for it, but I can’t do anything to stop it so mine as well just roll with it… too bad farmboy isn’t coming with me to the wedding…

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