Toxic.

I used to think this was all my fault, that it was all in my head, that I made it this way….

Tore open scabbing wounds until they were new again, fresh and exposed.

But slowly I’m realizing it was you too….

Every time I tried to escape your grasp, you did something to make me stay.

The night we locked ourselves away for hours to catch up on the months we’d missed

The night we had like old times, drinking and loving the way we used to

The night, after I tried to walk away, that you held me tighter than ever, and begged me to stay

The night I hugged you goodbye, and I thought you were never going to let go….

I finally see you wanted to keep me, your teeth were sunk in and the toxins were seeping,

You couldn’t let go any easier than I could.

But we finally have, your bite is healing, but the venom still courses through me…

Through my blood stream, into the heart…

A constant reminder of all our tainted memories…

Someday, I’ll find a new poison.