where to begin? part 1

so there has been just so much going on i don’t even know where to begin lol….
I think i shall start with one thing that i feel pretty sadly about.
There was a big earthquake in Haiti in January….
When i first heard someone in my office say that i felt sad for all the people over there but nothing more than that.
I then found out the next day i think that i knew someone who had been over there. and she was missing…
i was shocked by this news because first of all i hadn’t really talked with her for about a year just the little facebook message saying hey how are you doing.
well when i found out she was missing i spent the next 2 days i think worried sick. i couldn’t stop thinking about her and praying for her.
sure we hadn’t really kept in touch after high school but she was such a nice, free spirited, amazing person. she always made the day a little bit better when you were around her. i had then had the regret that most ppl have when someone they know dies, oh i wish i had spent more time with them…etc.
anyway finally i saw on a news article that they had found her body. she didn’t survive the quake. i cried. i hardly ever cry about death so it was a little wierd. i have only cried when my dog and my cat were put to sleep. im not even sure why i cried…but i did. anyway so i had to continue on through the day and work didn’t keep my mind off of it. you would think it would…but it didn’t . all i wanted to do was look up news articles about her.
so the next few days i was kind of in a daze. i just kept thinking about how i could never see her again. i realized though that she was in heaven now im sure helping all of the haiti kids up there.
i found out what she was doing over there was volunteering in a disabled childrens orphanage. so i went into the next step of grief, anger. i was just so mad (not at God) just at life. that this wonderful person who was VOLUNTEERING AT A DISABLED CHILDRENS ORPHANGE could be allowed to die. WHY? when there are ppl out there who rape and kill people that are just walking around loving life. WTF. i just didn’t (and still dont) get it.
Anyway, so i asked my friend Jennifer if she wanted to go to the funeral with me. because jen also knew her. so we went to that. there was at least 600 ppl. there. 600!!!! can you believe that!!!!! and thats just ppl that could make the funeral.
over the next few weeks i found out what an  unbelivable impact molly had on so many ppl. its not even explainable.
anyway im being hurried to go out the door.
we are going to moondogs for jons bday party.
sooooo write more in a little while. probably next week or something.
xoxo