I forgot what normal felt like.

So as of 6:30 yesterday I found out that I got my B in biochemistry. That means there’s only a very, very small chance that I’ll be sent packing (or, more effectively, looking for a job). I’m still waiting for my grade from my other class, which I need an A in, but I feel pretty confident about it. As soon as I saw that little letter it felt as if 50 pounds was taken off my chest. I can finally breath again. My stomach can finally calm the fuck down since my nerves are officially calm. At least for a little while.

Although everyone I have told about my good fortune was thrilled for me, I think the happiest person (aside from myself) was Greg. I guess I didn’t realize how worried he was for me. I mean, he made comments jokingly that I couldn’t leave him here all by himself, but he’s so hard to read emotionally, and I was so wrapped up in my own worry that I guess I didn’t take him seriously. He was basically grinning as much as I was and being super affectionate at dinner. He had to leave early (we were with a group) because he had work this morning, but he sent me a really sweet text about how happy he was that I pulled through. I really am lucky to have found him. Hell, he’s more than half the reason I stayed sane over the last few months.

Pardon me, I’m going to be a cat lady for a moment. My cat has a big bump on her chin. I have no idea what it is and I’m sort of freaked out. It was there when I came home from Thanksgiving — She’s a little special and some times has the bright idea to scratch her chin so hard that she actually leaves a mark, but this seems more than that. No, it doesn’t seem, it is, it’s a big, pink thing that is sticking out of her fur. I tried to put neosporin on it, then hydrogen peroxide (not at the same time and not in the same day), and although they helped a little it’s still there. Poor thing tried to scratch under her chin last night, meowed loudly in pain, and then ran and hid. I need to take her to the vet, but can’t afford it considering I barely have enough money to feed myself at this point. I think I’m going to renew my lease with my roommate, so that will give me an extra $250, so I can take her with that. And maybe get some Christmas shopping done.

I feel like I’m finally back at equilibrium. Oh, and I got a free coffee this morning for being patient at Panera when they gave my bagel away. Yaaay.