:-S + :-) + :-( + o_O + >:-( = ?

ive just been a bit of everything lately. stressed, lonely, happy, stressed, and I don’t even know lol. I worry way too much, my mind seems to always be on overdrive 😛

any who , since thursday lots has happened! first off, Jens apartment is so cute! Small, but cute! ^_^ A small living room/bedroom, small closer, bathroom, and little kitchen! It’s actually called a studio. Megan and I helped her hang up most of the clothes she brought with her.

so this is the summarized trip. I played the card game golf (previous entry) with skyler, jimmy, megan and jen. then the next night we walked about 6 miles with 20 other people going to random houses drinking wine lol except that megan and jen drank vodka and cranberry juice. it was sooo much fun! everyone was laughin and drinking and singing. i think at one point i was squished onto a couch with 10 other people and we were all singing random songs. its nice to have get togethers like that ^_^

at the last house something very interesting happened…I GOT KISSED! lol yes i did! I am not going to say who but he is an aquaintance of mine. I mean we have been at a lot of the same parties and such. Any who we were just chatting it up, telling jokes and catchin up with eachother when jen and megan told me that we were going to go get food with erick, brent, skyler and jimbob so I told him it was nice talking and that we would have to party the next time I came to visit Bellingham! I turned to leave and before I knew i felt someone behind me grab my waist and when I turned around he  kissed me! not knowing what to do I told him I had to go and when he nodded I ran off :P.

I mean…wow! I have never been just randomly kissed by someone before!  I was very flattered 🙂 , but I just don’t look at him that way. :-S  I hope things are cool the next time I see him..if I see him.

now by this time I was pretty drunk so I don’t really know how I ran up those stairs, but I did *shrugs* and told my friends what happened. I guess Jen saw it all and had already told everyone lol she said it was funny because she heard me say OH SHIT! (<–that was when I got scared because the when the guy grabbed me lol ) and I realized then that the guy probably thought I was mortified by him! OH NO! :-S 

I got shit for it the rest of the night (which I was expecting) eh oh wells lol.  after we went to eat we walked about a mile  to jimmys house where I made quesadillas and we played some more golf! or "tried" to play lol. then four of us (me megan erick and skyler) walked 3 miles from jim bobs house back to jens place where we stayed up talking and listening to music till 5am 😛 of course, the guys weren’t going to walk back so they crashed with us. there was room for one with me on the futon and one with jen and megan on the bed. so erick slept with them on the bed and skyler with me.  I felt a little uncomfortable about sleeping in a bed with one of my best friends exes…I knew she would not like it , but I had no where else to sleep! I decided I would tell her about it and hope that she would understand the situation.

at first i thought it would be a good idea if his head was on the other side, but he made a point that i would not want his smelly feet near my face. ew. lol sorry skyler haha. so we slept side my side. there was actually plenty of room for both of us to have our space. even though he claims i squished him against the wall that night 😛

but man I laughed soooo hard lol skyler and I were making these perverted jokes, I don’t even remember what they were about, but I could not stop laughing!  It is too bad he and julie aren’t getting along because I get along with both of them on their own. *sigh*

when we finally got up that morning the boys left with Jen to get her car and Megan and I got ourselves ready to go. I felt so bad for Megan because she was sick 🙁 she actually gets sick more often than not when she drinks. She said she might have an allergy to alcahol which I can believe. We had to leave before noon in order to get back and get ready in time for our friend Ali’s birthday dinner on bainbridge island! Unfortunately Megan was too sick to go which we understood. It turned out that Angelina and Netosha both didn’t call Ali to tell her they weren’t coming. Also, Ali could not get ahold of them! I felt really bad for her. I couldn’t believe they would do that! Either way it didn’t seem to get her down any. She still enjoyed herself ^_^ and omg she looked sooooo beautiful! Ali wore the orange dress from anthropologie with the swans on it and had matching earings and shoes! I thing it is the most beautiful dress i’ve seen on her ^_^ it thins her out, shows off her curves and I dont know I just couldn’t get over how cute she looked!

She told us all to get dressed up and I think I looked like I had just come back from the courtroom or harvard or something with my blouse, blazer and skirt lol. oh wells! *shrugs*

great trip, great day, great night, great food….i just felt great ^_^ and I was so happy to spend so much time with my friends! Now I just need to find time to hang out with mal ! I don’t see her enough *sigh*

Today I did not have to work and so I decided to have a ME day ^_^ fishing at bay lake! Packing up some snacks, a folding chair, my pole, hooks, and weights, and then slipping on my rubber boots, I was ready to go! Being out there alone was peaceful and nice ^_^ I actually caught two fish too! Although they were way too small to eat. A perch and a Bass. I met a friendly man named Lewis also, probably in his late 30’s, who said he could take me out on his boat next time if im there so that I don’t have to fish off the bank. Eh, why not? I got his number. Why not take advantage of that? I don’t have  a boat and my friends sure don’t have boats. and being out in the boat I’d probably be able to get the bigger fish! So I got lewis’s number and agreed to let him know when was a good time for me.

Julie called to ask if I wanted to go to fort warden with her, david and two of his friends, but I wasn’t ready for another late night, and declined. I might go to her house tomorrow for hot tubbing though. Then I got home, cooked some rice, chicken, and eggs, mixed it all together with butter and soy sauce for dinner, and got a phone call from antonio ^_^ It was so good to hear his voice ^_^ he seemed to be worried about how I have been since his departure , but I told him not to and to focus on his new life in LA. I am so proud of him and excited to see what happens next!

Yes I was sad that he left, but I am not going to let it get to me, and I certainly don’t want it to get to him! He does not need to be worrying about me when he has so many things he needs to be focusing on now. *sigh* 🙂

life goes on. what happens happens *shrugs* and I believe what is meant to be is meant to be. Things happen for a reason.

well my parents just got back from their trip to Hawaii so I’m going to go downstairs and greet them. goodnight diary!<br

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