papsmear shmapsmear

So my mom said we needed to have a mother daughter day and so she took me shopping! yay! haha. it was convenient because I was going to go into silverdale anyway for my gynecologist apointment 😛
  I got some shirts, shorts, and jeans so that was cool! 🙂 I actually found two knee length skirts i liked too! I swear its so hard to find cute longer ones these days! all the cute ones are so itsy bitsy! I need something I can move around in without showing my ass to the world thank you very much lol. hmmm unless I wore spandex….lol naw

I was super super nervous going in for my apointment because it was my first papsmear. My doctor had told me I didnt need one until I became sexually active and so i knew it would be pretty impossible to keep my "losing my virginity" a secret 😛 . She is the only person I think other than a few of my very close friends that knows everything! I mean she has to know because I’m afraid of leaving anything out in case she doesnt know what to look for or what to test for! Either way I told her that I wanted to be tested for EVERYTHING and she laughed. I didnt get it. then she said

"you’re one of those paranoid people then huh?"

I replied "well when you start to have sex for the first time im sure anyone would be right?"

well at least they should. YOU NEVER KNOW! then she started my breast examination and while feeling around began to ask questions. it was so embarrassing because she wanted to know if I ever had sex without a condom and how many times ive had sex and if I was planning on continueing to have sex farely soon which i quickly replied "NO! i mean no, lol I mean, I dont plan to for a very long time I mean…im not like that" and she just nodded and smiled,

geesh. I just wanted out of there!

I asked her if the papsmear would hurt and she told me not at all but that I would feel a slight cramping. so then she took out her long q-tip thingy, stuck it in and before I knew it it was over! PHEW!
before she left the room she said "have fun!" and winked at me

NOW WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN! just because I started having sex doesnt mean im suddenly like OH WOW I’VE SEEN THE LIGHT AND I MUST RUN TOWARDS IT! ….. eh i knew what she meant 😛 and when the right person comes along and I feel im ready then yes…it will be very fun lol…. hopefully

I turned soooo red 😛

finally time to go home!

now I know, i mean im 100 percent sure that I dont have an std. but there is a chance that I could have hpv cells which scares the crap out of me. I know someone my age who’s doctor told her that her cells were mutating and would turn into cancer if they didnt do something. that scares me. i didnt think that would ever happen to someone I KNOW! and yet I dont want to get the gaurdasil shot because it is so new! i mean just now they are finding out that the birth control patch is dangerous. Im going to wait a while before I make a decision.

anyways im just really glad that I dont have to go through that again till next year. ugh. Its not fair, id rather keep my sexual personal life private thank you very much! its not fair that gynecologists have to know those things. 😛

im off to bed

hanny