cell phone=love/hate
man oh man, i feel shitty. ive only gone to the dig tiwce this week because on monday i was really sick from my period , and wednesday i had a cold. but today, my stupid alarm went off and when i put it on snooze IT DIDNT GO OFF AGAIN! so yea this is the second or third time its happened and i feel bad . i know my grade is probably lowered by now. fuck. well at least i called to say what happened but i doubt that will excuse it. sigh. i just have to try and wake up the first time and be there every single day of the next 4 weeks. except for whem i go to ohio with my parents. speaking of my parents i heard they are planning for my family to go to hawaii for christmas! if we do i really hope my boyfriend can come too ^_^ and rachels fiance. that would be freakin awesome. a whole cool family trip! i feel bad for jonah taht every girl hes found has broken his heart or had to go away. his last girl was in the army and was stationed in chigaco for 3 years. poor jonah. i think he just has to stop looking and wait. the right girl will show up when they are supposed to. i find that its when you stop looking that you actually see straight. at least for me anyway. well at least theres one good thing about not goin to the dig today. i dont have to shower again (my hair si already nice and clean from last night and styled) and i can go home early! yay! so im about to pack and stuff. but yea so far ths experience is so great. its a whole new thing being here out on my own, and then going out and digging for 8 hours. bein on the front page of papers, bein on tv, getting interviewed and documented. theres a team that comes out every week to make a documentery of our progress and from what ive heard, it might end up being sold nation wide and put on abc or discovery! i cant believe it! im going to be a star!….sort of haha. but yea its nothing like i expected it to be. actually a lot easier then i thougth it would be! and the landscape and nature are amazing! i took megan and cara on this gorgeous trail to a BEAUTIFUL waterfall when they came here! absolutely fucking gorgeous! i found a snake in the water too! it was really cool! then i took them up to lions rock (a mountain nearby) and showed them the spectacular view from 5,000 feet up. on the drive up, on either side of the road there are thick forests and huge everlasting seas of purple and blue lupin mixed in with tiny red and orange flowers. little chipmunks would hurry off the road as we came near. up on top there were more grassy flowery meadows and a view that was breathtaking of everything below us. everlasting forests flowers and hills thousands of feet below. i just wished right then that i could jump off and soar above it all. so yea, its not all desert here! well i bettter start gettin my stuff together. i promise more pictures soon!
hanners
Kimo’s going to be in Iraq for christmas, dearie. but i hope trever can come so you can hang w/ him!
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hey im a random noter but saw your comment on sharissa entry, its nice to know someone out there like me went through the same stuff. i dated a friend at work for 4 weeks but friends for 1.5 yr and he left without saying bye, i never knew why and i still dont. i can assume 100 possibilities, it hurts. and i know how you feel. it sucks. people suck.
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you might not ever love anyone as much as you did your first,but thats okay because when you fall in love again (like if you are now) its always going to be a different kind of love. i cant really explain how, but you’ll know when you will feel it.. for different loves, you will find yourself to do “at that time” something that sticks out differently about your relationships. deep down, i will
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like way deep down, always my 1st love. i would do anything for my fiance, anything, but when i first fell for him, it wasnt like my 1st love and im scared also what if i fell out of love, im always promising him to tell me if that ever happens and i just dont give it a thought, it could happen to me. i pray every night that i hope our life only gets better. if you read any of my recent entries, i
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just was told monday afternoon when i got home from work (i was prepared most likely) that an amazing friend can’t be my friend because his wife feels uncomfortable with the friendship. (our spouses knew we emailed each other) we only saw each other when we all got together. i wanted truly to become her friend as well, maybe more, not to get closer to him-i think thats what she thought. im not
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even that “girl” to do something like that. so in respect obviously he said we couldnt continue to be friends. in aug they were coming to my wedding, but i really dont see that happening. he didnt say he wasnt coming but what was i suppose to say oh please come, so i told him not too and if he sent a gift, id send it back. i cant believe those were my last words, how depressing, but he wouldnt
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have been to write me back so… anyways i thought he was amazing (as a friend) but i found myself thinking if this continued that wouldnt be good because he cared about me in ways my fiance doesnt show and it made me feel so important (i know thats wrong); im sad but i just block it out so i dont have to deal with it. i will never forget him. so even if you’ll never forget your 1st luv, that
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doesnt mean you dont love the guy your with now. -eh god, i hope i didnt ramble too much? is that make sense?
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while i was reading the part you said poor jonah, he will find something when he stops looking. IT worked for me. I believe in that 100%, i always tell people that. when you least expect it.
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i wanted to go to hawaii for my honeymoon, wasnt exactly in the budget so vegas it is for now. before i die hawaii tho-my dream vacation
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hey i didnt know this guy for no longer then 4 months, we just chit – chatted through email alot and he was with his wife way before he met me lol. i just met him in feb but im not attracted to him at all, hes just a good friend. yea, you need to stop comparing, i did that for awhile in my head, one guy i dated in ’02, i always compared him (he was an ass tho) to my 1st, but my fiance, i dont’.
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the more and more you compare, the less you’ll feel towards this person.
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lolz. yea i’ll be in Iraq but thank you. And thank you for the kind words that you left as my note earlier. …. in order to check my entries. u have to go to the top left box and scroll down and right. … it’s a bit messed up but i havn’t the time nor patience to fix it lol. for crying out loud, it still says that i’m like 15 or 16 lolz. thank you again. and i will continue to love ray ^_^
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