trevor trevor trevor ^_^

my horoscope for today!
You have a vivid plan for the future, but suddenly it’s not clear how you can take the right steps to get there. Don’t look for magic rainbow bridges. Just take things one brick at a time.

yea thats for sure, and i also have to stop thinking so much about what my future plans were. you see. i didnt know id have a boyfriend let alone care about anyone for a long time! i always planned on moving to anchorage, or kodiak, and becoming a flight attendant or bartender at a club, but now that i have someone in my life that i really like, im starting to wonder if ill have to change those plans. its scary to think that im actually thinkin about that. but yea i gotta take things as they come.

my couples horoscope for today:
Philanthropy comes to the forefront under the influences of the benevolent stars; helping hands are willing to aid you and your sweetheart should you say the word. If you don’t need ’em, extend some hands of your own.

i dont exactly know what that means, but i hope it doesnt mean trouble.

any who, trevor left yesterday afternoon to california to play a gig for a band he used to be in. hes getting a lot of money for it , thats the first reason he went, and also the band has been doing very well and if they are noticed, the recordings with him being the drummer will be noticed which will help his career. well it already looks like his career will start this summer! he also gave me the news, yesterday before he left, that an agent, or man who works in the music industry or something, wants to send them on a tour to play in 4 different places in arizona, all flights, hotels, food, boos etc…paid for. its not a sure thing yet but if it happens it will happen the second week of july, but thats not the only thing that surprised me, he said " and if this is a sure thing hannah, i want you to go with me" and of course i said yes! omg wow! flying first class, partying in hotels, on the road with trevor and his band! trevor and i traveling together  ^_^ it would be so much fun! since trevor and i dont get to see much of eachother right now, summer will definitely be bonding time. i have always said that i would want to get to know a person very well and know all of their faults before ever becoming their girlfreind, but  i realize that what i was talking about could take  a very very very long time! and i would not have agreed to be trevors girlfriend if i did not feel that something good would come of it. so far, being called a girlfriend is only a title to me. i dont feel single, i still feel the same, i still feel independent. i just know that i like trevor too much to be interested in dating anyone else right now, so that was a good reason so be his girlfriend. and i just have to get to know him a lot more. we both have to get to know eachother a lot more. even he knows we are going to have our ups and downs and fights and squabbles and disagreements, but right now, we both like not knowing where its going. and i cant wait for the summer! 

wednesday night i was going to stay at the house jennifer is staying at in bremerton because jens roomate courtney would be at her grandmas and i didnt want jen to be alone. i also thought it was fine because trevor would be leaving friday night so that still gave me time to see him. ali told me she was going to stay over with jen too so it would be a girls night! ali even had her mom make us a pizza! but then when i talked to trevor and asked him to come to jens to hang out and visit, he said that he was actually leaving thursday afternoon instead. then i thought, i see jen all the time at work and ive been seeing ali a lot lately too, plus jen wont be alone tonight because ali will be there and i really want to see trevor before he goes. so i decided to stay and spend time with trevor even though he felt bad because he thought i should be living up to the plans i made with my friends, but they understood completely, also because i was going to stay at jens the next night also.  so i hung out wiht with trevor and layed next to him on the couch till he fell asleep and i headed back over to my place. i thought that was going to be the last time i saw him till he came back from cali,  but at 12:00 (about one minute after i awoke and was still lying in bed thinking about him) he gave me a surprise phone call!

"hey hanners! did i wake you up?
"heey! haha no , i actually just woke up a minute ago and was just lying here. i thought you would be gone! what are you doing?"
"yea right i bet i woke you. i guess we are having one more practice before we go around 4 and then im staying the night over there and leaving in the morning. i was just calling because i have to drop off a drum in tacoma to this guy thats filling in for me in roy and then i have to leave to practice right when i come back so i was wondering if you wanted to come with me and spend some more time with me before i left."
"yea! yea definitely! just give me 10 minutes because im still in my pajamas and i havent even brushed my teeth and stuff"
"oh yea sure, i mean i still have to shower and everything so just come over in 15 minutes, or just come over as soon as you can k?"
"ok!"
"ok bye"
click

awe, he wasnt leaving yet so the first thing he does is call me, even if its just to go on a drive with him ^_^
a half hour later i was ready to go. trevor is a crazy driver lol, he says hes a good driver but i think hes a little unaware of whats going on around him lol. maybe hes a little TOO confident haha. kinda scares me sometimes, maybe cus im a very cautious grandma driver compared to him, but oh wells! during our drive he held my hand and said that he would miss me when he was in cali.
i said
"oh come on trevor its only 5 days! and by the time you get there and are having tons of fun you wont be thinkin about me at all!"
and he replied "yea my mind might be into everything thats goin on there, but right now all im thinking about is that im going to have to be without you for 5 days, and i want to spend time with you"
i blushed hehe…
the drive only took an hour and i thought he had to go straight to practice but he said
"oh its only 2:30, we have more time before i have to leave so do you want to go for a walk or soemthing? lets go for a walk in banner woods k?"
I smiled at him and said
"ok, but i havent eaten anything so im going to eat first ok? ill make you something too!"
"nooo you dont have to do that!"
"i know i dont but i want to!"
"ok ok, well then ill be over at your house in 10 minutes ok?"
"ok"
right away i set forth to making him a manly sandwich with whatever we had .
i decided on turkey and chese, but instead of making it like i do for myself with just one layer of meat, one of cheese and one of lettuce, i put one layer of meat, a layer of cheddar cheese, lettuce, another layer of meat, anotehr of cheese and another of lettuce. then i put mayo on one side of the bread and a pickle and onion spear on a colored toothpick all fancy looking on the side of t

he plate. next i carefully sliced the sandwich in two right in the middle. i decided on a bagel and cream cheese for myself since it wasnt so messy and hard to get out of my braces. when trevor came over he exclaimed about how the sandwich looked like it came from a deli! i congradulated myself in my head ^_^.  so thenw e took beau and headed to banner woods. his company is just so nice. we threw pine cones at eachother and played butt tag lol, a fun game for all couples hhahaha. yea…. and sometimes when we walk and hold hands he randomly twirls me in a little spin with his one hand lol. its so cute! wow….i must really like him because almost all of my entries are about him and i keep smiling and talkin about him to everyone. i hate how someone can make me act so girlish 😛 i hate the fact that im becoming girly! i mean ill still climb trees and im still the same boyish hannah, but boys can make me giggle and smile and blush and act so dumb and i hate it! grr…… and all of these entries would be private if trevor was looking at these lol. id never let him see ! so consider all of you lucky that he doesnt view these, because if he started to then none of these entries would be here for your viewing pleasure ! lol. i cant wait till he gets back , and wow, i really hope that tour happens in july! how exciting!