i hate change

Is a teacher or some other person who’s supposed to be in charge suddenly acting weird and sort of out of it? Cut them a little slack — they might be having a hard time at home.

hmm no, well, the other day my english teacher kept spelling and saying things wrong. does that mean something?

my singles love horoscope:
Is it possible you’re overthinking a particular romantic situation? It’s good to apply the ol’ noggin to it, but at a certain point, what your heart has to say is much more relevant. Tune into it now

well i’ve tuned into what my heart had to say before, and it wasnt enough, so next time its goin to take a while for me to follow my heart. its going to be hard to trust that i can do that.

any who, yea, today was a lazy day. jeff didnt call me back so we didnt hang, cara came over but she was really tired and didnt want to go out, ali was at her boyfriends, jen was working, and mike and megan came back from seattle all pooped. so yea we sat at home lol but its ok. i was with my friends. gosh i dont want to work tomorrow, and i dont want to do my essay :P. AHHHH. im becoming such a lazy ass. i guess thats what happens when theres nothing to do around here. i hate port orchard 😛 grr!
man, i dont even talk to the people i grew up with anymore. adriel doesnt care ,im not important enough anymore for him to get a phone card to call me, etc… wayne doenst reply to my ims or e-mails or comments on myspace. he didnt even e-mail me a number to contact him at. chris is off doing his thing with american idol and he didnt even tell me i was stopping in seattle. i could have seen him! looks like nobody from my old life cares anymore. i have my friends here, but its still sad to lose my old ones. i just dont feel like im special to anyone these days. i dunno. i dont really have just one person who decides that im the one they want to tell things to FIRST, and im the one they always go to for advice, and im the one they always want to be with. im annoying to most people. they can handle me for a while but then they need to be with someone else. i dunno, id like to have one really special friend again, where im the most special to them and they are the most special to me. ive lost my two most special friends and it makes me sad. i hate change, i really do. TO MY WASHINGTON FRIENDS: im sorry dont take offence to any of this if you are reading. i love you all, but im sure you understand what i mean. you guys are great friends, i dont know what id do without you, and if you dont understand what i mean then im sorry. goodnight everyone