lah de dah

my horoscope for today:
One thing that being in a relationship would do for you is: it would give you a sense of stability. You’re wracked with worry these days. For no reason. Cheer up!

i dunno, i guess, im not really wracked with worry, i know i will meet someone someday, im just kinda sad lately thats all. it would actually just be nice right now to have a guy with no attatchments that i could just make out with whenever i wanted! then i would be satisfied for the day haha.

ok any who, today i sat on my ass again. this week has kinda been like that, feelin lazy and not wearing makeup and stayin in mah pj’s all day and feeling grose. lol and watchin tv, and eating, and going online, and watching more tv, etc etc etc. sigh. (thanks justin for gettin me hooked on laguna beach butthole). yea he called today. i used to really dislike him but i think its just because i didnt understand him. hes actually a really neat guy. im glad we are talking. i dont know if we are friends now, or if he is just talking to me because of courtney, but all i know is that hes hurting and i really know where hes coming from. i know how hes feeling. its good to talk to someone who understands where you’re coming  from because if you dont, no matter what you just know they can never understand and you still feel all alone. any who hes goin to college and hes already met a girlfriend candidate 😉 go justin! i told him not to get into anything until hes ready though, i know he will be alright. hes a good guy. any who tony and i talked today, it was awkward. as long as we dont talk about what happened i wont blow up. haha. but yea i guess hes traveled a lot. to oregon, and cali and mexico and other places, just to travel. thats cool. i wonder if ill be friends with him again. but its nice to talk to him again i guess, kinda gettin a lot of stuff off my shoulders. liz is here right now and im talkin to her while im writing. im sittin on the bed with her laying behind me. shes talking about how much she hates mayonaise. i guess its weird that im the only one out of all my friends who likes it hehe. but oh well, i just have to cut eating so much sugar. like the sugar in ice cream and chocolate and stuff. ill still eat the sugars in breads and pasta and fruit and what not. man this is going to be the most stressful year of my life. actually, the next few years will be. sigh. ok night ppls.
hannah