update continued

my horoscope for today :In case it comes up today, don’t forget: Every end is actually a beginning. Really, it’s true. So if something seems to be over before it even got started, that just means its making room for something better

oh….wow……thats so true. thats exactly what happened…..i just hope there is something better for me ^_^

ok, my last entry was private except to one person. if anyone else wants to see it they will have to let me know. anyway…..so i went to eastern washington the very next weekend after i got back from alaska, to eastern washington with my choir. we performed at columbia basin college. that was a 6 hour bus ride there and back. of course we stayed in a hotel there for a night and then returned, but yea. then i stayed after school all that week to catch up on makeup work, and then that next weekend after cbc i went back to eastern washington (this time only a 3 hour drive) to yakimah for a singing competition for state! I was supposed to be in second soprano competition but there was a mistake and i was put in first. they couldnt change it so i had to sing my second soprano song in a 1st soprano competition! i still got really good scores though (that equaled my scores in regionals) so i was very happy. i know though if i was singing in second soprano competion i would have placed :-(. anyway, 3 traveling trips in 3 weekends. so exhausting. plus all the work ive been making up and all these mixed up feelings and dealing with what to do about tony. well. i finally did decide. i decided i wouldnt make up my mind about tony. i decided i had feelings for him, but i would do nothing about them. i chose my freedom. i just got it, im enjoying it, and no feelings are goin to take control of me again right away. no siree. so tomorrow, im meeting a guy and his brother (who are coming from tacoma) to hang out with a bunch of friends. we are goin to have a fire and roast hot dogs and everything! this is my new freedom. there are no feelings for another guy controlling me anymore! so i can do as i please.  This guy and i have become friends on myspace, and have been e-mailing eachother back and forth for some time. I decided it was about time we met, and so yea! I think he and i are going to be good friends. more? i dont know. But i know that we are friends and thats what i think is really cool. hes half spanish and half ( i dont remember) but very handsome. anyway i bet the get together will be lots of fun tomorrow!

ok well chow ppls

p.s
i started writing poetry again. i havent done that in a long while. i think im finally getting over my hurt.