gotta catch up!

my teen horoscope from astrology.com

Hey, lazybones — you can’t procrastinate forever! That doesn’t mean you have to do everything now, but it does mean you have to get the covers off your head and say hello to the morning already!

haha well up yea i guess thats me! im a night owl until like 3 or 4:30am and then get up past 11:30 hehe. but hey! im not wasting the day, i just sleep the same amounts of hourse i usually do but ina different time hehe.

ok um well i dunno if ppl know but mike and i have been over for a long while. I was scared of ending up alone so i decided id find someone just in case something dint work out this summer, and well, before i could find out if that thing would work out or not, i realized it wouldnt work out with mike. Mike is great to talk to, great to hang with, great in a lot of ways, but it felt to me that we were both going in different directions with our feelings. he was thinking ahead, i was thinking present, and so on. ne who it almost seems like hes one of those guys that are so wonderful but for some reason you’re not feeling the same, and your feelings are decreasing instead of increasing. ya know? ne who i had my reasons, but it was the hardest thing ive ever had to do , call mike up and end it. it sucked. and what sucked more was that night i got my heart broken, but im not gonna get into that 🙂 i mean why should i be sad about losing something that i never really had? i dunno. i mean i know, but that week was the hardest week ever to face. there are so many things i wonder about and are confused about but ne who we are still best friends because we have alwas been best friends and i hope always will be. im not gonna try and get over him even tho everyone says i should, but if it happens it happens. who knows what will happen in my future? i could be with anyone. and even if it isnt him i know he will always be my friend and always be there for me. well hmm other then that after that week i kept myself pretty busy to keep my mind off of things. been having lots of fun actaully! hanging with my friends, goin to teh beach, havin bon fires, goin to parties, settin off fireworks, goin innertubing, the zoo and aquarium, the movies, bowling, swimming, etc…ive been all over the place. right now its 85 degrees and im sweating my ass off! adriel said yesterday that it was 86 or something in fairbanks. i would think it would be in the 90’s there! well ne who i am DYING! *pant pant* yea….i want ice cream….strawberry shortcake bars! oh sorry thinkin to myself. well i cant think of much more stuff to say accept that OH YEA! rachels friends came to visit! well michelle, emily, and haley did so far. emily is still here , the other two left, and debbie is yet to arrive. 🙂 they are so fun. i really REALLY hope aika can come see me! in face ive gotta call her and get her flight info and see what i can do to help her find a cheap ticket! okies well ive gotta bounce! chow!
Hanny