my weekend!!! sunday uh oh sick!
sunday morning i woke up with the worst sore throat and a really stuffy nose. i felt amd looked like crap! the first thing i thought was “o dang i hope i dint pass this on to tyler” well ne ways i was supposed to be goin into seattle to see some family friends i havent visited in a long time and i really wanted to see them so i convinced my parents to let me go after i took my pills and tea and gargled with listerine to help my throat. usually i never really talked to the moorisons cus i was really shy but i liked being around all the different familys that got togehter every other weekend. it felt happy and cheery 🙂 but this time dereks gf was there and she and i got into a really long talk! shes really awsome and i started talkin to the moorison boys more too! i felt much closer to them then before. usually i can get closer to them when its our turn for ppl to come to our house for sunday. i feel more comfortable in my own territory u know what i mean? well ne ways i had fun but by the time i got home i was feeling worse and i drank more tea and got into bed but i had to call tyler back cus my sister said he had called. i talked to him for a bit and said i probably wouldnt be able to go bowling the next day but i was hoping id get better and id call him later. then i went to sleep and i dint call ne one till later. i called tyler but he dint answer so i talked to adriel for awhile. he really knows how to make me laugh and cheer me up lol. ne ways then adriel said he was talkin to tyler so i told him to tell tyler i called him . i hope tyler wasnt mad that i was talkin to adriel. ne ways that night i started thinkin about saturday again and i kinda feel like maybe i shouldnt have let him feel me up cus we had just been goin out for a month and truthfully i dint exactly know him that well yet.things like that shouldnt happen until later in the relationship but i did like it. but i felt like a bad person because i liked it! i just felt kinda like a slut cus i moved kinda fast but everyone told me it was natural to want to be touched and yea i did want to be touched but i felt bad for wanting it or somethin. ne ways i think i should have waited a little longer for thayt to happen but it did happen and i dont regret it. but from now on im gonna take things slowly cus if hes already feeling me up and it wanst even a month yet then who knows where things would go? well i know for sure im not gonna have sex because i am gonna be a virgin till i get married, and thats for sure. next time we make out,sure ill let him feel my boobs if he wants too but im not taking my shirt off too. taking my bra off is one thing but i dont want to take it all off on the top, i dunno id feel really weird being totally topless! okies well yea onto the next day….