yesterday,might have lost my best friend
continued from last entry(there wasnt enough space) ne ways i actually wanst tired so i got back online and talked to manda since adriel dint want to talk to me.this is our convo-
Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.
hannah says:
sup
Breathing is highly overrated says:
hey
hannah says:
i couldnt sleep and started cleaning my room
hannah says:
so i just came back down
hannah says:
lol
Breathing is highly overrated says:
ohh
Breathing is highly overrated says:
okay
Breathing is highly overrated says:
lol
Breathing is highly overrated says:
adriel is……..
Breathing is highly overrated says:
well……
hannah says:
dont tell adriel im online
Breathing is highly overrated says:
he still likes you
hannah says:
i still like him too
hannah says:
i just cant tell im if i still like him or not
hannah says:
so dont tell him
Breathing is highly overrated says:
he thinks that you like keith and your over him
Breathing is highly overrated says:
hes cussing and saying that keith stole you from him
hannah says:
i never even gave ne hints that i liked keith! sigh
hannah says:
well
hannah says:
see
hannah says:
he asked me if i liked keith
hannah says:
but i dint say ne thing cus i duno
hannah says:
for some reason i want him to think im over him so he can only think of me as a friend
hannah says:
but then i dont
hannah says:
i just want nothin more then friendship i dunno
hannah says:
so im just ignoring ne of my feelings from now on
hannah says:
i already told him thisa long time ago
hannah says:
that were only meant to be friends right now so we should try to just i dunno
Breathing is highly overrated says:
you know what i noticed?’
hannah says:
put feelings aside
Breathing is highly overrated says:
you two are both the fucking same
Breathing is highly overrated says:
your both talking too me about each other
Breathing is highly overrated says:
saying the same exact things
Breathing is highly overrated says:
if you changed your screen name to adriels
Breathing is highly overrated says:
i wouldnt even know the difference
hannah says:
hannah says:
hehe
hannah says:
well i told him that we both dont want to ruin the friendship
Breathing is highly overrated says:
why do thinks have to be so complicated with you two?
hannah says:
so its awkward going on like this
hannah says:
lol i dont know! maybe its me
hannah says:
i mean
Breathing is highly overrated says:
why cant you just talk too him about it?
hannah says:
cus he doesnt want to talk to me
hannah says:
thats y i blocked him
hannah says:
he said he dint feel like it
hannah says:
so im waiting till tomorrow for him to cool down or somethin
Breathing is highly overrated says:
cuz hes jealous!!
hannah says:
and i already talked to him about our feelings sooo many times!
Breathing is highly overrated says:
stupid he loves you
hannah says:
its not gonna bring it ne where
Breathing is highly overrated says:
he tells me taht all the tiem
Breathing is highly overrated says:
just talk to him
hannah says:
im not ready for ne thing and he isnt either
hannah says:
sigh
hannah says:
its no use
hannah says:
so wat
hannah says:
im not supposed to find ne one else ever again?
hannah says:
lol
hannah says:
but were friends!
hannah says:
i dont know wat we are ne more
hannah says:
!!!!!!!!!
Breathing is highly overrated says:
i told bill i have a boyfriend too try and make him jealous so if he asks who kevin is tell him he’s a really hot sophmore
hannah says:
its like
hannah says:
we dont want to ruin friendship but i dunno
hannah says:
lol
hannah says:
wat he say?
Breathing is highly overrated says:
lol
Breathing is highly overrated says:
he doesnt believe me
hannah says:
bubba doesnt?
hannah says:
lol
Breathing is highly overrated says:
nope
hannah says:
wel o well
Breathing is highly overrated says:
but just go along if he asks
hannah says:
k
hannah says:
manda wat should i do?
hannah says:
i mean
hannah says:
we both dont want to ruin the friendship
Breathing is highly overrated says:
talk too him!
hannah says:
and we both dont want to have ne kinda relationship right now
Breathing is highly overrated says:
why talk too me?
hannah says:
he wont
Breathing is highly overrated says:
i cant do anything about it
Breathing is highly overrated says:
yes he will
Breathing is highly overrated says:
trust me
hannah says:
he siad he dint feel like talking
hannah says:
and i dont want to!
hannah says:
AHH
hannah says:
cant u see?
hannah says:
we have talked about our feelings so many times!
hannah says:
and the last convo was the deal!
hannah says:
we would just be friends from now on
hannah says:
and i said its time we just put our feelings aside and if were ever meant to be then it will happen
hannah says:
and he said that he dint want to like someone else cus he dint want to stop likin me. but wat u meant was we can still like eachother. i mean ill always have a place in my heart for adriel but right now were just not meant to give our whole hearts to eachoter cus we dont want to ruin the friendship so we should just leave our hearts open for more oportunities until the day were meant for eachother or somethin u get wat im sayin?
(then manda had to go offline cus her comp froze)
then i received an e-mail from adriel sayin this-
Hey Hannah,
What’s up? Not much here. I don’t know why I’m writing, but yeah, just wanted to say goodbye properly or sumthing. Thank you for being a really good friend. When I first met you, you were the smart, "nerdy", quiet, shy, straight A student. I was the loud, stuck up, popular, preppy, troublemaker. We became friends, it was great, fun, countless memories. Now, your not that quiet, shy, girl anymore, and i’m not that stuck up, troublemaker. I thank you for that. Because of you I started to see more of life, and started to care about things, because of you, I don’t do those "bad" things, an
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