04/11/2009

Soo I guess we broke up.

Pretty nice the day before my birthday.

I’m not actually that upset right now, i guess because deep down i kinda wanted it.  I think I’m at a turning point in my life where i need to branch out, meet new people, have new experiences, etc.  I probably will have times where I will be more upset or lonely in the near future.

He has some issues he needs to work out.  I think he doesn’t know what he wants, among other things.  He also doesn’t know how to communicate effectively, and i know guys always have a problem with that, but he was really really bad.  Like couldn’t even verbalize what he felt after given hours to think about it.  Really. Bad.

I don’t know what the future holds, but i think that maybe this wasn’t such a bad thing.  I think things happen for a reason sometimes.  And sometimes you need to face the inevitable, as hard and scary as it may seem.  I think our "discussions" in the past few weeks/months have prepared me for it.  Maybe this whole thing really hasn’t hit me yet.

My main concern now is being lonely.  I’m still in the city and whatnot, but because of my internship I don’t see my friends that much, and it’s hard meeting new people.  I’m scared that I’ll become depressed or some shit like that.  I dunno.

Anyway, and advice is welcome.