11/10/04

Tonight was my final Tennis Banquet.  Pretty sad if you think about it…i basically grew up on that team.  I’ll never forget my first few days as a freshman, so intimidated and confused, lol.  Then on top of that making varsity and never talking the entire season because all the upperclassmen scared me…haha oh god.  I made so many incredible friends who otherwise i would have never known, learned a VAST amount of lessons, and I also did a lot of growing up.  It’s amazing how much drama you deal with on a sports team, especially when the girls are complete drama queens themselves, you’re the only mature captain…oh wait, only mature PERSON, and the pathetic ordeals people get themselves into.  Even though this year was pretty stenuous in the social sense, I still loved it.  An who can forget Ches-Monts two years in a row????

I think that now I’m a Senior, and through all the years of high school I’ve endured, I feel like i’ve learned a lot.  I just look at some people now and I can’t believe how pathetically immature they can be…I mean, for god sakes, you a freakin senior!  With no names mentioned, all I have to say to this person is that they are the most immature, self centered person I’ve ever known, and they do not deserve my friendship.  That’s all I have to say.

Ugh, don’t even get me started on my relationships…I think I have some psychological disorder.  I can’t seem to stay with one person for a long period of time; pretty much, I get really bored with them really fast.  It is so FRUSTRATING…why can’t I just stay content with one person?  I see all of these other people who have had their boyfriends/girlfriends for months and months…why can’t I just last that long?  I tried resorting to the whole “friends with benefits” thing, but that didn’t work out to well.  Long story, believe me…I just want some stability in my love life.

Even though my love life is in shambles, I still adore spending time with my friends.  I can just be myself, feel no pressure…it’s fantastic.  And, yeah, me and the hot hot bowmanator are DEF going clubbing with our hot gay pals…anyone who cares to join is welcome, haha.  Falcone, you know you wanna.