3/30/04

Ha, well, I got a dress for the proms I’m going too…who the fuck knows what I’m gonna do for junior prom…I really don’t have anyone in mind to ask…actually I don’t even care if I go.  I’m only going to senior prom cause I was asked, and that I am a veryyy kind person.  Haha I’m mean.

I had SAT’s on saturday…woop dee doo.  Those college board nazis can bite me.  Ha, some kid got kicked out of them though, which is pretty sad.  He put his answers in the wrong section and couldn’t go back and fix them.  That’s when you say to yourself, “Now, am I actually qualified enough to be taking the SAT’s…”

Why are stupid people always the one’s to get pregnant by accident? Oh, wait…because they’re stupid.  A friend of mine keeps pulling this shit…she has sex with her boyfriend and then tells in a joking manner that she didn’t use a condom or it broke, and now she thinks she may be pregnant.  First of fucking all, you’re 15 years old.  Second of all, if you have no protection with you, just use the brain that you were freakin born with and think about the fact that maybe you should’nt do it.  Oh wait….that would be too easy.  How many times has this happened now?  And lucky me, I’m one of the only people she trusts and knows how to drive, so I get to drive her all over creation to help her out.  Whatever…you’ve overstayed your welcome on this one.  If you and your boyfriend are gonna be complete dumbass’s, then maybe you should find some new friends, cause it’s not my problem and I’m not gonna deal with it anymore.  I thought maybe after the first pregnancy test you took I thought you would have learned, even if that was an unavoidable accident…but then you actually went and intentionally didn’t use protection.  Ok, what the fuck.  John knows what I’m talking about…

Oh, and for the record…I would never in my life do any of that shit.  I actually have an IQ.  I would have never gotten involved or helped you because this stuff is just too much…but I did it for her anyway.  Whatever.

I feel kinda bad now…just a little though.

Ugh…guy complications…it may work, eventually…can’t talk about it now though.

My grandfather’s still sick, still hasn’t woken up after about 2 weeks.  I’ve never actually had anyone I knew closely get sick or almost die…it’s kinda messing my equilibrium up.  I’m really not one to ever get emotional over anything, only specific things, and I didn’t really think I’d be upset about this.  But when I first heard about how sick he really was and the first day they assumed he would be dead by that night, I just freakin lost it…and that’s really weird cause that is soo not me.  I mean seriously, it really freaked me out that I reacted that way.

Ugh, I think depression has been bringing me down really hard these past few days.  If I’ve been a complete bitch to you, please forgive me.  I don’t necessarily hate you, I just hate everything else.  Yeah, I need a boyfriend. lol