There’s a funnier entry <—that way.

Yeah this one’s one of the serious ones…the one I wrote just before this is probably more entertaining though.

I want to change my love, to feel it from above my sense of the lotteries these treasures built  inside my heart lust for. To struggle in the deprivation brought about by the indeterminacy of my own ambiguous quest for a soul to cherish and dredge myself against the rocks my naievety saw fit to place in my way and ascend my mind’s fixations. For the sake of finding the causal correspondence between my heart, mind and soul that illumes my path towards a serenity known to those of free spirit and unconditional love. An understanding of humanity that embraces the evil spurned forth by mistaken good intention that I allowed to consume the better parts of ‘I’ and cripple a fond nature I once knew. To leave behind those of disrepute who would corrupt and abuse the nature within that finds itself as a modern human caught between two dreams. A scarring physical temperance that begs for transcendence yet never asks it’s veiled parts to guide them hand in hand to a sense of peace and speak as their journey leads each other towards goals that one heart has so desperately longed for. A seething search a calmer displacement would’ve beheld long ago. A goal to cleanse my mind, free inhibition-fears and stand stripped of ego before an unconditional caring aura to let it’s warmth fill me. To change my jealousy to freedom, envy to understanding, fears to faith and wants to determination for a single touch of another despondent angel- left for dead and brought back from tears wrought forth by the same covetous nature in their heart, someone who has seen through their fears and misgivings to grasp at the threads left hanging by trees of life and climb their heights to enjoy the fruits of their labors on equal footing as I. The beauty of simplicity, the elegance of understanding…

I haven’t wrote in a long time. Not like this anyways. It feels good to spill things out every now and then…