I’m tired, so tired.

Picture singing the title Du wop jazz style and hi, we’re on the same page.

The concert was AWESOME! I had a great time and recorded all the bands that played. . The drive there and back was HORRIBLE! I think accidents magically happen miles in front of me. Sounds like an ass thing to say about people that were in car wrecks but no one got hurt, they were just serious enough to impede traffic flow when I-5 is only 2 lanes so it’s not that bad. My friend who asked me down is a very large hippie kind of character who is friends with many people in bands around my home town, most of these bands were going down to Oregon to play a large party. I never connected with musicians or any click of people from my home town but Jen (ex girlfriend who I remained close with after we broke up. She passed away recently) was friends with a lot of the people who were playing this little concert down in Oregon. Being that I was one of two people that spoke at Jens funeral I became know there as ‘TJ, the guy that spoke at Jens funeral.’ Good times all around including me getting whacked in the face with a board giving me a cool little scar under my eye on my cheek, they roasted a pig in the ground which was cool to see even though I’m a vegetarian, . Then on the way back a 5ish hour trip took almost 8 hours…

mrrr…

This made me late for an awesome date. She waited 40 minutes for me but I showed up with flowers and she seemed pretty excited to see me. We talked for hours and hours…from 8pm to 2am we pretty much just talked…we walked along Golden Gardens beach in Seattle, hopped over the restricted fence and walked down the train tracks until we had a good view of the Puget Sound and an amazing sunset, which we sat on rocks above the water and watched. Walking back along the tracks we heard a train coming, not knowing it was the Sounder (public transportation train). We thought it was a slow cargo train so we’d have time to jump out of the way. The Sounder comes flying around the corner and luckily she was off the tracks already but I had to jump my ass out of the way. Then we drove back closer to where we left her car and sat by a river. It started raining on us so I opened the back door on my truck (the swing up kind) and we talked from my trunk covered from the rain. She’s very straight forward, very honest and she brought up being afraid of dating a pathological liar a few times. I assume that what I was saying was sounding like I was trying to appeal to her. I don’t really know a good way of convincing someone you just met that you aren’t a pathological liar and I really wasn’t trying to ‘convince’ her of anything so it seemed odd to me that she brought it up more than twice. We were talking about relationship issues for quite a while though so it wasn’t something that I thought was a negative by any means. I’m a horrible liar though, I’ve never really felt the need to lie. Directing a conversation away from something? Sure, I do that. I wouldn’t lie though. I respect honesty and trust that people are being honest with me until they show me they don’t deserve my trust. Seems simple to me. Common sense and all that? Why is it incredibly sad to me that people can’t function normally on this level of honesty? So much so that two sweet people are intrinsically afraid of each other (in an amazing kind of way) because they SEEM awesome. This is where I freeze too. Part of me loses interest in that she is similar to me and she isn’t a challenge. I am completely ignoring that impulse though. I’ve done challenging and difficult and heart wrenching more than my fair share of times. If she is like me then she’s far from boring, has the potential and drive to do many things and wont be afraid to put herself into exciting and new situations. Who’s to say that that isn’t the challenge I should be looking for? Someone I get along with and can trust who I can find new things with. Why fight over the details of how you get somewhere when you could actually get somewhere for once? You know? I’ve spent so much time in relationships hashing out details of ‘us’ necessarily and unnecessarily…never having actually reached a place that either of us really wanted to be. Scorpio brunettes….how I love them. I’d be stupid not to follow this through, anything else I want exists in a dream world that probably isn’t good for me in the first place, they’re just fantasies that I entertain with the certain knowledge that they would most likely fail….

Jonsi is gettin me jonsin’ right bout meow. If you like him his whole album ‘Go’ is amazing and very upbeat in a drifting kind of distant way. If you like him but want more down trodden music that’s similar then you should check out the band he came from, Sigur Ros. The album ‘Takk…’ by Sigur Ros is amazingness. Their Icelandic grooves and lyrics are pullin’ me in and I’m liking it. The first time I heard Jonsi was at the end credits of  ‘How to train your Dragon’ and the song ‘Sticks and Stones’ made me smile something fierce. I didn’t find any other music by Jonsi though because he was a part of Sigur Ros and hadn’t released ‘Go’ yet. Now I found both bands and I’m a very happy camper. Sigur Ros is going to make up a part of a mix cd that I have to give to someone that’s probably going to read this so she should stay the hell away from that band! I have NO way of enforcing obviously…

And I’m hanging out with her again tonight apparently…hehe. Goodbye for now! The notes you all deserve are coming to you soon. Promise. 🙂

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