Baby question….

The past few days have been stressful and emotional. I am SO ready to go into treatment, but they pushed my admit date back AGAIN. SO frustrated. I know it is beyond their control. The reason they keep pushing me back is because their facility is under construction, but I wish they would stop giving me potential admit dates and then changing them. First it was supposed to be June 2nd, then the 7th, and now the earliest is the 14th. At this rate I will have my baby before I get in!

I had an ob/gyn appt, today and am feeling really anxious about it. I am 27.5 weeks, but am only measuring at 26 weeks(I have however gained plenty of weight, which is awesome because it means it’s going other places than to baby ). The doctor told me they aren’t concerned as long as measurements don’t go any farther than 2 cm (2 weeks)behind or ahead of what they should be, but I still worry. I know I have abused my body through this pregnancy(purging), and I am so afraid my smaller measurements are symptoms of intrauterine growth restriction or some other danger to baby boy. I spend too much time scaring myself on the internet…. Anyone else ever measured ahead or behind? Know anything about it?

I think J has an ear infection. He has been pulling on his ears all night, and is refusing to sleep. Poor little guy. If he’s not better by morning I will take him to get checked. I need Will to get home with children’s tylenol, but he is working late AGAIN. Can you sense my bitterness? On top of Will’s regular 40+ hours of work each week he will be working Youth events Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday nights until at least 10 p.m. (most likely later) all summer long. Not ideal timing with my entering treatment, I have a feeling my parents are going to do the majority of "parenting" J this summer. It makes me feel even more guilty (if that’s possible) about going into treatment.

Will got me an IPAD for my birthday. I have no idea how to use it, but it’s very cute. 

We are all finished with teacher meetings for the year(there was seriously NO point to me attending them since everything was about next year, but I guess that’s why I get paid the big bucks ), so it’s just a matter of getting things wrapped up in my classroom. I am hoping to get things finished up by Monday.

Tomorrow Will and I are going to take J to the zoo (assuming he’s feeling better). I can’t wait. We haven’t done a family activity like that in such a long time.

Alright…I need to go cuddle my little man and try to make him feel better.

Anyone have any good book recommendations for me to read while in treatment?