1/22/07

I hate it when I can tell my period is coming by the fact that I am insanely emotional. Everything makes me want to cry. It’s ridiculous. My kids are being decent so far today, so at least that’s a plus.

We are getting wedding stuff accomplished! We already booked the church, the organist and instrumentalists. We bought our wedding bands Saturday. I got his engraved with "I will not take my love away" since that is the way he proposed to me. Yes, I am cheezy. There is still so much to do–it’s overwhelming, but fun.

Will and I had a really good talk Satuday night about my eating disorder stuff. I guess he knew the extent of it even before I told him, because my parents had talked to him. They told him about it because they didn’t want to see meget hurt again by a guy who couldn’t handle it. I am still not sure how I feel about them talking to him, but I know they meant well. He said he was just waiting until I felt comfortable enough to talk openly with him, which is why he didn’t bring it up. We talked about how horrible it is healthwise, but he also reassured me that his love is unconditional. He knows I will struggle probably for life, but he will be there encouraging me and supporting me. The conversation left me feeling completely vulnerable which scares me to death, but that it’s the way you’re supposed to be when getting married, I guess.

Remember the boy who told me that I was so mean he didn’t know why I was a teacher? I got the most hilarious apology letter from him! It was like two pages long–talked about how he was a sinner and would pray for forgiveness(I think his mom must have told him what he had done was a sin). He hoped we could get through this and still be friends and that I could still be his teacher. He also told me he hoped I could marry Will on September 1st and that he could come sing at my wedding. It was SO sweet! I was trying so hard not to laugh when he looked up at me with his big brown eyes waiting for my reaction.