Woman in the Moon

Woman in the Moon
Hi
Thanks for your note.
Must look back over my news letters to see what highlights I can manage.
The highlight of the last decade was the milleneum, not only the fireworks on TV but the sense of time also the fact that we moved into the home I built.
Do you know me?
As a kid when I read my old diaries I was pretty square.
Possibly I still am but I doubt it.
How did I change, why did I not just stay the same.
Or am I the same
 
What was I like as a kid.
I loved my mum
I was deeply religious
I loved nature
the lake and birds
Magpies, hawks, and ibis.
and hated football.
I wanted to be a priest,
that seems so lame now.
Instead I became a father
I wanted to sail the seas,
and live in a remote place;
I still do!
The first of life’s ambition
began to form at age nine,
I wanted to build my own home!
The second and third ambition
formed at thirteen.
I wanted to be married and
have children.
I was to realize the last two ambitions when I was nineteen, I loved my wife and loved my children. The first ambition I started on at 20yrs, although I did not have all the carpentry skills, my father and brother did as I became a fitter instead of joining my father and brother in the family carpentry business.

 
But I did have an innate architectural ability and drew a house that was different, cost effective to build, structurally extremely strong and took it to my Dad.

 
That ambition stalled there when he told me to go away and draw something sensible and then he would help me build it.
I got on with my family life in a home we bought, the block of land was sold and the dream was just a memory.
 
Then in 1987 when I was 42yrs my father died. At that time I went to Fraser Island to Kingfisher Bay with its resort structure of soaring roofs, tall fine columns and open spaces.

 
I started drawing again, went to the draughtsman and had the plans finalized and then to the engineer to get the paperwork to start building. The design was not so radical as Kingfisher and different in engineering but it was possible for me to build.
Timbers poles were sourced from the bush, fashioned and treated ready for raising. When they were standing I just loved the look of them and it seemed a shame to cover up their symmetry. But I did and now we live in my first dream.
 
I love it, my Dad would hate it.
 
I go back now to the second and third ambition in my mind,
to make sense of the love I have for my children,
to understand and accept.

 
And I go back to my wife, to understand what love is for her.