Apparenly Im still a child.

Yep.

who the fuck does he think he is? *screams* i hate my father. i fucking 20 years old. which means im a adult, which means i should get the respect an adult gets. he lost my respect a long time ago. therefore, i dont "respect him’ and act as if hes god and do whatever he wants and tip toe on broken glass to make him happy. I just dont.

I wont.

i shouldnt have to.

you shouldnt be afriad of your father, you shouldnt hate your father. but I am and I do.

he makes my anxiety act up. he almost told me to leave again. HA FUCK HIM. i pay fucking rent now. he cant kick me the fuck out.

he wants me to clean,work fulltime, and get ready for school in september…there arnt enough hours in a day to do that.  I cant do that.

what im doing now is almost killng me. im exhausted, emotioally and physcially worn out. if i take on anymore at this moment, ill have a nervous breakdown.

im trying. but thats not enough for him, it will never be enough. nothing I do will ever make them happy, theres always going to be something I shoulda been doing, something he needed doing, before its okay.

*sigh*

yesterday, this morning, and now, hes caused breakdowns. I hate him like ive never hated anyone else.

theres stil alot going on right now, but i dont have time to write out more. plusss no one leaves me notes anymore..

*crys and sulks in the corner*