1/23/2012
I’ve been pretty tense for the last few weeks. It’s getting worse. Basically all day I have this tightness in my chest. I’ve never really been someone to be prone to anxiety. I’ve always just kind of rolled with the punches, taking whatever life threw at me.
it’s pretty bad right now actually. That’s why I’m writing this on my phone at school, because I feel like I need to get it out before I just kind of vibrate apart. I wish I knew what to do about this… Nothing I do seems to help me relax.
In answer to a question left in a note on my previous entry, I have considered getting on eharmony or another similar website, but it just kind of feels desperate to me, like I’m giving up on meeting people on my own. I just know that my heart isn’t really in it. I know what I want and I know that I can’t have it.
Thats it for now I guess. I don’t really feel any better for having said it either. I really hope it changes soon, it’s wearing me down to constantly feel like I’m wound so tight.
Hey Jeff, wish I knew what to say to make it a little easier. Truth is I don’t think there really is anything anyone can say, though. It’s trite to say “give it time.” But it’s trite because, maybe, time is what helps most. Maybe knowing there are others out there reading and wishing you well will help a little, too. I hope so.
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