guilt-ridden conscience

i don’t know if i’ve really mentioned him, but my lovely friend oliver rang up a while ago. i sent him a text a few days ago saying ‘i’m back home!’ but he thought i was being weird and was telling him that i’d was back at my university house! but another girl who i used to go to school with saw my mum and she said i was back home, and she must’ve told him.

he sounds very chirpy, which is a great relief because towards the start of term i had to dash home in order to see him – he’d gone into a private hospital for treatment for depression and bulimia. he rang me up one sunday evening to cheerfully tell me he was going in the next day – in less than twenty four hours i was watching telly with him in the hospital. but my rapid dash to go and see him was done just as much to help me as to help him – to ease my guilt-ridden conscience as i’d barely spoken to him in the weeks beforehand. he seemed very pleased to see me, although he did rather delight in telling me that his mother had told the nurse that me going and being a university ‘was a big factor in all this.’ which was pretty horrible, and unjust, considering i was the one who convinced him to go to the doctors and get help for his depression – and he did. and i’m sure his parents finding out and forbidding him to take them was just as big a factor.

anyway, he seems a lot better now, and i can have a good natter when i see him next, which shouldn’t be long. and about time too, being stuck in this house in the middle of nowhere is driving me up the wall. all i do is sit indoors, watch the news on iraq and read urban legends from http://www.snopes2.com – highly addictive, i tell you.

Angry Beaver

March 22, 2003

It sounds like you’re a very good friend and his parents are surely a bit mean. So, hurrah for catching up with Oliver and having good chats with him. Ryn: ‘Devestating smiles that tear you to pieces’ now I love him. I know I’m easily led but that sounds so nice it made me feel all weird.

Futhermore evidence as to why other peoples parents are bitches, always quick to point the blame, never to thank the solution. Well done on being a good friend! x

TheMoor

Mmm…yeah, you do seem to be a devoted friend and stuff. I would have thought a 2nd year (am I right?) student would not be bored – they would be sh1tting themselves worrying about revising for the exams after Easter. Shirley Nott?

Ambrosian

March 23, 2003

Private hospital? Sounds more like a lifestyle choice to me.

~CherryBomb~

Woh, his parents sound like lovely people I must say. I’m off to that urban legends thingy now for a nosey.

“me going and being a university ‘was a big factor in all this.'” How does one go about becoming a university, may I ask? The name Oliver makes me think of Ollie Plimsolls. Oliver’s mother sounds like a despicable witch.

RYN: I’m glad you remembered about the Scud Missiles, otherwise I would have had to come here and be really patronising and lecture your sorry ass until your eyes melted.

RYN: So what your dad is an MD and your mother a ‘secretarial bimbo’? Anyway, you sound like my perfect woman! ;-).I think I was trying to get to that point in my entry about the standard Essex girl clone – you scratch the surface and there’s nothing underneath…no soul.I suppose you could accuse me of being over-serious but I rather enjoy thinking about stuff rather than letting it pass over.

rebelwithoutaquilt

March 24, 2003

His parents sound evil. I don’t think you have anything to feel guilty about, he’s your friend but obviously you’re not going to give up your own life just to support him.

RYN: Haha! I forgot all about you hearing that. All together now, “Let’s do … OH NO!”.

Curiosita

April 11, 2003

Awww. You’re really kind. His parents aren’t though, grrr.