12/07/2012

 The semester ends next Friday.  Next week is exams.

I am completely indifferent to finals. 

I just don’t…care?  It’s like these classes are completely irrelevant to my life.  Like my life has any relevance. 

Struggling with the whole I’m-a-pointless-waste-of-space thing again.  Human life has intrinsic value, right?  I have doubts.

This whole sad-all-the-time thing is ridiculous.  I can’t rationalize it.

OkCupid boy unfriended me on Facebook, and it’s for the best.  I feel bad about treating him like shit, I guess.  But my complete inability to trust other people existed long before he came along and will persist long after he’s gone.

I need a change.  I thought about joining Americorps.  But I have commitments.  Roots.  I can’t just up and leave.  Right?  I don’t know.  It’s irresponsible, and I’m not irresponsible.  I could teach English in South Korea.  Buy a bus ticket to…well, wherever $200 will get me.  Or I could just keep doing the same shit I always do.