ha.

The entire back (dorsal?) side of my left hand is a bruise.  I can move my fingers with no pain, so probably nothing’s broken. 

There is a kind of funny story about this, if self-harm can ever be funny.

I was having really bad sinus pain because of a cold for the better part of a week.  Finally, I caved in and bought some Sudafed to (hopefully) dry things up and kill the headache.  I took some at 4:00 PM on Monday. 

Pseudoephedrine has numerous side effects, many of which I’ve written about before.  It can cause increases in alertness as well as insomnia and nervousness.  And anxiety. 

I’ve been fairly nervous and anxious all on my own since last Tuesday, on account of my cat.  I wasn’t thinking about that on Monday, though, because I’d been having this bitch of a headache for 3 or 4 days by then and just wanted it to end.

By 9:00 PM, my headache was gone.  Yet I found myself fixated on my cat, watching his every move and worrying.  This seemed rational to me—he’s been sick, after all, even if he’s been making improvements—so I watched and worried, watched and worried.

Long story short, I had a panic attack, which I addressed in the way I usually address stress, without stopping to consider that, for once, my irrationality had an explanation.

Ha. Ha. Ha.