no rest for the wicked *

Beau isn’t sleeping well AT ALL. he sleeps like a newborn, for pete’s sake. he was sleeping through the night when we decided to have Baby C. go figure. we’re thinking he just misses me. he sounds almost scared? we’re considering putting him in sawyer’s room with sawyer to see if that helps. maybe he won’t be scared if he knows he’s not alone. dennis says it’s not a huge hassle to put his bed back if that doesn’t help. i can’t do this anymore. we can’t get up several times a night to take milk to Beau or go in to quiet him or find his cars or whatever the fuck his problem is. it’s too much. i don’t know if he’s hearing too much from outside (i hate that the kids’ rooms are at the front of the house facing the street) or if he’s having bad dreams or if he is just a light sleeper. he goes though phases but i can’t take it anymore. he seems to function on very little sleep. me? not so much.

*i should say that he GOES to sleep fine. this happens sometime after midnight. it could happen at 12:30 a.m. or 3 a.m. or 4 or 5 a.m. no rhyme or reason. keep your thoughts coming.

we’re going to ask sawyer first, of course.

i don’t have a lot of faith in it working. there’s no easy fix for anything that involves Beau.

anyone have any other thoughts on what worked with your kids? he’s 3 in september. it’s ridiculous.

we bought the playpen the other night 🙂 it’s pretty nice. i picked a scratch card out and it was only 5% off 🙁 basically we saved some taxes. i really really wanted 50 or 25 % off.  i didn’t find a purse (looked all over) and the shoes were SO pretty but they didn’t have enough support for my messed up feet. 🙁 so all i got was the playpen on friday night and i really wanted some retail therapy.

saturday, i went to a crop 🙂 got lots done. i keep running out of pictures so i don’t know if i can do another crop in april. i guess i’m TOO caught up! makes me wonder if my pages are too simple.

sunday, we went out to do groceries. i stopped at Ardene Outlet and got some $5 tanks 🙂 actually, one stripey vest, one tank with a tiger design, one cute neutral colour tank and one flowered tank. while dennis was getting a much-needed haircut, i slipped the tank on under my shirt. after groceries (got some cute socks on sale and some nice makeup-i love the real canadian superstore! was tempted by some workout gear too but we spent far too much already), we went to the car dealership and looked at the caravans in the lot. i wish i liked the colour options better but i think i favour white. we’ll see. at least the black has a metallic sparkle to it. blue would match our car but i think it’s between black and white.

today, beau and i have done next to nothing and will be leaving to get sawyer soon. i really hope our coats are dry. i washed them and bloody well forgot so i threw them on high in the dryer!

i really wish i could feel this little one moving around. i thought i did a couple weeks ago on and off but nope. still not yet. it worries me. a couple weeks til the ultrasound. 

shit. only a few minutes til we leave. i can give it til 10 after 2. the coats are pretty lightweight so we can hope…

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