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apparently beau is going to start talking now. this morning, we were just waking up and i said "where’s your cup?" (i take a lunch bag with an ice pack in it and a cup of milk to bed with me for him to have when he wakes up so i don’t have to get up.) and he looked around and then said "there it is" (‘ere i’ is.) later on he was watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and Mickey said something like "if you see the sheep, say sheep!" beau said "shee!" and then "baa!" LOL. and he counted to 7 this morning. i’ve been suspecting he could for a few weeks now but heard most definitely that he did today.

tonight, we go pick up my new glasses and contacts (just some for trial to see what i like.) i’m going to grab sunglasses, hopefully some shoes (i need something nicer than my nike flip flops that i can stand/walk in for long periods of time), water wings for sawyer, and father’s day presents (i already got dennis’s-these are for our dads.)

i’m feeling like a fatty today but this shirt i have one does nice things for my boobs so good stuff.

tomorrow, kid free til sunday!!!! we’re dropping off the boys at their aunt’s house for the night. sawyer will have a lot of fun. he has a lot of fun with these cousins and they have a pool etc. then we are going to look at some flooring that’s on sale (for the bathroom) and then we have 2 parties, one an engagement bbq we’re going to hit for a bit and then the club summer party. that one will be a late one for us, i imagine.

ah, can’t wait. let’s hope it doesn’t storm and ruin the parties. it’s supposed to be super hot though so maybe some rain will cool things off and dry off by the time we get to the parties.

still not sure what i’m wearing….

 TTYTT, he’s a better dad than i am a mom, though i have more patience for Beau. really though, he’s more fun and is more nurturing and stuff. he has to work on his bond with Beau but in my case, my bond with Beau is so much stronger than my bond with Sawyer. so i guess we’re even. he really is better than i am in so many ways though. it’s hard to explain. maybe i will someday….

 

here’s a bit of explanation i left a fave in a note:

sawyer took to dennis right away, even as an infant. he didn’t even want to breastfeed. he would calm easier for dennis and just has always had an attachment to him. it’s not bad b/c i haven’t had the brunt of everything placed on me with sawyer. BUT now i have with beau. beau breastfed and that is a big part of our bond. and he co-slept (still does part time) and he just always wanted me, me, me. he still prefers me but will allow dennis to take care of him somewhat. just some weird natural thing that lead each boy to one of us. PPD led me away from sawyer too a bit. we didn’t form much of a bond until he was about 1.5 yo. i didn’t get the birth i wanted, he didn’t breastfeed, and both of those things made me feel like a failure. it was tough. he also screamed for hours on end every night for 3-4 months (beau did for 5 months but i could stop his crying sometimes by nursing him.) sawyer has always been more independent and never minded having his own space (sleeping alone, for example.)

and a note i left for another fave about some of why i think dennis is better with them, esp. sawyer:

he’s just more natural at it than i am. he’s always been better with sawyer, from infancy. kinda crazy but true that daddy was sawyer’s fave even then. of course, i’m beau’s fave now so i guess they decided to split our attentions. LOL. he does more with sawyer and i don’t do a lot. i’m not the type of mom who plays. he plays with them. i don’t get down there and play cars or play ball or whatever. i kinda don’t do much at all but read some books and talk and go for walks with them. maybe when beau’s older, i’ll have more time for both of them but beau clings to me and takes all my energy.

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June 18, 2010

I felt like a fatty yesterday. It’s the heat haha. I love parties! Have fun! Yay Beau!

June 18, 2010

Awww love that picture! He’s a good daddy!

June 18, 2010

YAY for beau talking! that is awesome. Took a while for Spencer to talk, now he never shuts up! 🙂 I love it though.

June 18, 2010

It seems to me that you are both good parents! Have fun without the kids! You definitely deserve a break.

June 18, 2010

YAY for talking! And LOL I AM a fatty ALL the time ;p

June 18, 2010

love those rompers on him. So cute. Why do you think your bond with Beau is so much stronger?

June 18, 2010

Why do you think he is better than you at parenting? I know we all have our strong points and weak ones, but you’re a good mom. =o)

June 18, 2010
June 18, 2010

Sometimes i feel like Adam is a better parent than I am… He’s just got a way with kids, well babies in particular. The last couple days Luke just wants his Daddy at night, it makes me sad 🙁 at least my boys know mommy is the nurturing one 🙂

June 18, 2010

Even is good. 🙂 Yay for Beau and his talking, funny how that happens sometimes (nothing, then a torrent :P)

June 18, 2010

Didn’t really have anything to say but I did read. 🙂

June 18, 2010

Still seems to me like you are both good parents.

June 19, 2010

RYN: They’re nothing interesting, just plain t-shirts in various colors. Trev can be loud like that too, with slamming stuff around, I say it’s just because he doesn’t know his own strength lol When speaking he’s not loud though, not as soft spoken as me, but still not loud so I have no idea where Alyssa gets that from. Sometimes she’ll talk to you like you’re on the other end of the house when you’re sitting right next to her. Drives me nuts! Yeah, she has to wait till next year to go to school. She could go to pre-school now, but I don’t see the point in paying for that when she probably knows everything they would teach her anyways.

June 20, 2010

cool

June 20, 2010

i don’t do the play thing either, i try though!

June 20, 2010

and bryce totally adores his dad and talks about him all the time.

June 20, 2010

i’m really scared my attachment is going to be like that with my kids only reversed. i bonded with carlin very early and the bond just isn’t as strong with rogan. part of it is the guilt i feel for not feeling like i have enough time to spend with the both of them. like it’s not fair for carlin..he didn’t choose to have a brother that soon..i come home from work and go directly to carlin to play with him. rogan is secondary, even though he’s like beau with his ‘high maintenance’ needs. part of me doesn’t care. he can wait…and that worries me. i don’t WANT to feel that way…but i kinda do. and lloyd ends up holding him most of the timing and consoling his endless crying. i just get irritated and want to get as far away from a screaming baby as possible. even though we’re breastfeeding too, it’s just..different. *sigh* long story short, i’m in the same boat essentially. you’re a good mom. we’re both good moms. we just parent differently than our male counterparts. and thats OK. 🙂 and RYN: i bought the swaddlebees, sandys and mothereases from you and we LOVE them. the organic ME inserts are starting to wear out now, but otherwise, they should last though both kids!

June 22, 2010

your son is so cute. i’m the same way though. damien has a bond with his father that him and I don’t have. He spends all day with daddy though while i work and i think that has something to do with it.

July 23, 2010

thank you for your note, so i have been looking though some of your entrys, and this one HUGELY got my attion, in your second answer you VERY much are the same as my sister in law. She is A LOT closer to her one child more then her other 5, mostly because she isnt a get down and play with them when they are little, she is not getting a lot closer with her oldest because he wants to talk/watch movies/play bored games with her…anyways its very good you each have a special boy!! 🙂 I don’t know how you can handle your husband being a fighter, just the picture was to much for me, i could NEVER watch my husband do that, I very much understand why you perfer to watch his videos after…and i LOVE your display picture it looks so natural and real!! anyways have a great weekend!!