hypocritical kiss

Proper reading material for the week of valentines day?

Against Love by Laura Kipinis.

 

I want to skip this week

but maybe it will be good for me

to look the relationship I will never have in the face

to feel that sharp pain in my chest and know that this isn’t what he wants

when nothing happens on valentines day

 

Yesterday morning he called me all excited, "I miss you! Let’s hang out tonight,….etc etc"

so I called him at 5:30, because he gets off at 5, no answer

No call back either, so I waited an hour and called him again and left a message.

Nothing.

Nothing the whole fucking night.

and of course at 8:40 this morning there was a "hey I’m sorry something came up and then my phone died"

And then he said he would call at noon and didn’t call til almost 2

he didn’t even seem sorry.

I can’t do this. I’m physically incapable of being ditched this frequently without freaking out.

I don’t think he means to do it (although this is the 5th time in 3 and a half weeks)…so yeah maybe not

I don’t know

but I feel a lot crazy right now.

 

and I just want one nice valentines day.

just one.

a single rose and a kiss are all I need.

I will probably get ignored.

I’m still going to wear a pretty dress and smell nice, and if I don’t hear from him, flirt shamelessly all day.

phoebe