Swordfish hotKiss night

My life here in the city of angels feels so still

I may have lost my only close friend at school (or I may have never had one in the first place)

I have no idea if I actually have an internship or not

I don’t even know if I’ve managed to fail out of college yet (It’s completely within my power to know but I refuse to check)

I have no idea where/with whom I’m going to live when the spring semester ends

It’s like I’m in suspended motion

frozen with a bunch of shrugged shoulders

But at the same time, I am more comfortable in my little moments

my friends from home are all getting along, and we don’t do quite as many stupid things anymore

I can’t shake past boyfriends out of my head

that stupid lonely reaching girl in me wants someone to sleep next to

someone to care

outside reassurance that I’m not batshit crazy

I can be okay with myself alone.

right?

Right.