nautica

(My life is more than you know

than you ever cared to know

sometimes I feel like my head is a narration of words proving to you exactly how much you don’t.)

 

I don’t know what I’m looking for

I’ve always felt like a seeker, but now

single for almost 2 months for the the first time in a year

I’ve looked at options and they are all wrong

yeah, it’d be fun for a while

but it couldn’t possibly last

no one to even fantasize about

 

I feel like my soul is an incompatible one.

there is no other sock in my pair

I’ll be forever mismatched.

 

in other news, I sent my unsent mail entry to J.

he responded on monday

and it’s funny

because the email sums up our entire relationship, and I’m sure he didn’t mean it like that.

 he said that I put him through a lot when we dated, because I wasn’t over M

and that I shouldn’t guilt him about not telling me he was dating someone new. 5 days later.

And that I was really hot, and it was really hard not the have sex with me the last night he crashed on our couch.

 

and there it is. Our relationship in a nutshell.

life is funny that way sometimes.