11/21/2012

I hate this city.

I have no idea how I lived here for 18 years.

My mother, instead of being concerned that I’m thinner than I have been since I was 16, is delighted that I’ve lost weight.

I lost weight because I stopped eating

It’s still hard to eat more than a few bites of something.

I’m concerned for myself, and she thinks I’m just 5 pounds away from being happy with my body. I’m 5’7 and 127 lbs.

 

I wish that I could just be fine how I am to someone.

Sometimes it feels as if everyone thinks that if I just changed ONE thing about myself, then I would be perfect.

 

Get over your ex

get over your daddy issues

lose 5 pounds

start running

stop being so shy

make eye contact when speaking

and the list goes on

and on

and I want to scream at everyone to accept me as I am or fuck off.

 

phoebe