11/04/2012
I gave him his black shirt back
no longer is it a totem of my singleness
Which is good I guess
I still dream about him a lot
and fantasize about sex (because let’s face it, I’m not getting laid anytime soon)
but finally in the past couple days I’ve found space in my brain to think about other things
I’m trying to remember his flaws, to not want to be with him
it’s hard
really hard
each day still feels like a battle to behave
but I’m doing much better than I ever have.
It’s been almost 3 weeks
and the first month is usually the hardest
I’m going home in 2 weeks so, that week will be full of family, who knows, I may actually get over this…
Sunsets over the bay the past couple days have been breathtakingly beautiful.
I love crisp autumn air and red leaves.
When they all fall off it’s sort of depressing (unless you are in the snow) until spring when everything is blooming.
phoebe