09/03/2013

After a few weeks of hell, I am back.  Work-Life balance was non-existent.  The last straw was when I made my son cry.  I was an intolerable beast to everyone around me.  Husband finally saw the light and agreed that the status quo was just not sustainable.  I nearly lost my job.  I had made some improvements at work.  I was heading down the right track but it was clear that I couldn’t maintain it.  Last week boss lady presented me with an option to take a part time position.  It is a huge pay cut. But it is 30 hours and a shit-ton less responsibility.  Today, I accepted it.  To her huge credit, she worked hard to find something that would keep me at the company.  I had a really long and positive conversation with her.  She holds nothing against me.  In fact, it finally became apparent to her that my now former job was too big for one person.  Unfortunately I had to be the lab rat.  Oh well.  Onward.  It makes me happy that she and the company’s higher-ups want me to stay. 

The biggest impact of this whole ordeal has been on my relationship with Husband.  We are communicating a little better.  He’s been very supportive.  He’s not disappointed in me.  That was one of the things that was bothering me most.  I couldn’t handle his disappointment.  I was wrong.  He could see the job was too big.  He doesn’t hold it against me.  We went for a walk yesterday and talked through things.  It was nice. 

So with the new schedule, we will not have to pay for afterschool care.  That’s 425 per month saved.  I get to keep my med/dental benefits which are much less expensive than Husband’s.  There is no question, that we will feel the impact of my reduced salary, but I think we can adjust and be happy.  Happier that we have been in a long time.