Reflection

It is never about the people around, I know that now I’m older. Its about you and that one other person. You’re the only two that know your relationship.
And it is very complicated. Painful sometimes. Never easy.
Interesting…
I really do like life, and what it brings. For the downs, there’s always a little spark somewhere to replace it. And I do enjoy the mystery of it all. I am having fun with my imagination, and different possibilities of what could be. And I do think, “whatever happens, happens”
If there is something there, or not. Why does there absolutely have to be something? And I don’t want a negative response either. Because the possibility of a positive one is what is holding me to this. The reality can be a bit much… So right now, the fantasy is better. And I’m okay with it just being a fantasy. I don’t want pain. I have my own stuff to deal with right now, without jumping into something. So I just won’t worry about it. And hopefully, if the timing is right, my life will continue smoothly.
I’m not myself right now, really.
But regardless of anything, even if I wasn’t having feelings for someone else, this all needed to end.