Self discovery in todays entry

Interesting… I just read my own entry immediately after posting and I learned something about myself. Don’t you love OD for that? In my letter to Steve, I didn’t mention how much I love Rob at all, even though I thought about it. I wanted to rub in his face that I love someone else, but I couldn’t. How’s that for not having closure?
If I have that much of an emotional block that I can’t even mention my new love in an imaginary letter for fear that the imaginary Steve might still have something to say, how can I truly move on? I’m still emotionally blocked off! Its the reason I still have so many problems having sex now in a relationship. Its too emotionally attached! It turns me right off. I have no idea what I can do to give myself closure.