40 days and Nights lmao

     I think I’ve known since the beginning that I’m going to regret what I’ve been doing.

     I really genuinely did not want to have sex with Richard, and I did…that just seems to be the effect alcohol has on me!

     It’s been a bit of a thought in my head for quite some time now to do a 40 days and 40 nights thing, u know like the movie. So, I’ve finally decided to go for it! I never really make a new year’s resolution list, and if I do make even one resolution it’s not a serious one and I never follow it.

     So this time I’m going to go for it. But that means it includes alcohol…since I seem to have such a huge problem with abstaining from it…and I would really like my glands to go down, they’re still a little swollen! But this also means that I can’t even kiss anyone!!

     I’m not sure if this means I’m going to refrain from …well… help without a guy…if you catch my drift…just because I’m really not sure I could do it! But I’m going to try!

     I’ll keep updating in here, I think this can be my outlet cuz I bet I’m going to be REALLY frustrated quite shortly lol

     Well, wish me luck! I’m hoping that by the end I won’t have much of a desire to do the things I’m refraining from!

Holy shit that means February tenth!!