Update of my stupid life…

     omg…sooo much stuff has been happening, especially today.

    Life is so stressful sometimes. I kinda met a guy, and he’s probably not the greatest but I really like him. He’s bad…he’s on probation for stealing. He recently got laid off because they shut down the pulp plant that he was working at. So now he works at Pizza Hut. He’s got an 8pm cerfew. Except for when he’s working…I could go on and on about the bad things about him…like how he never finished high school…but then again, I’m in Thunder Bay, so I’m starting to learn that things like that are really common here.

     I don’t even live in that good of a neighborhood, but it’s one of the top three in the city. He was so intimidated when he met my aunt and uncle that he broke out in a cold sweat and then told me that they were the most "proper" people he had ever met! Which is insane because I have learned that my uncle used to do acid and coke…and party just as hard as any really bad person that I know…and now he has a PhD!

     Gah! And I got these emails from April, my biological mother telling me how my mom and my mom’s sister (just wanted to be clear on which aunt I’m talking about) used to make fun of me when I was a little kid and talk bad about me behind my back to each other. I also learned that it’s absolutely certain that I was sexually abused before I was adopted and April wasn’t sure who did it or when it happened. She didn’t go into much more detail then that. But she said that her sisters were raped and sexually abused by her father and her brother, so it could have been one of her boyfriends, or even a family member.

     I don’t know…I just don’t knwo fucking anything I’m so frustrated right now. I want my parents to fill out my OSAP application so I can have money to pay for my tuition, and they haven’t done it yet!

gah! I’m sorry I haven’t been here to talk to you guys, I have been away a lot. I still really like the people I work with and stuff…and tongiht I’m giong to a shag, so it should be fun. Just for clarification: a shag is like a stag and doe, except in Thunder Bay, they even invite people they don’t know. So I’m excited. Well, I’m going to call Laz and vent now…peace.