I live in hickville and stuff…

     Ok, here I am in a place no one has ever heard of, yet I’m happier than I’ve ever been.

        I left Brad a long time ago (thought I would add that because I do’n tthink I"ve written anything in an uber long time). As much as Brad still refueses to talk to me, I feel relaly bad for him. I know it was so long ago, he must still care. He waited for me for a year to be with me, and I just left him in the snap of a finger. I don’t know if he knew how many times I cheated. I’m not one to cheat, and technically it wasn’t cheating each time, but it was still dihonest, even if we weren’t together, I do’nt think he expected me to do anything. Especially with Nick, I was supposed to prove myself to him and all I did was something terrible. I hope he never finds out, I think if would kill him.

     I should change the subject, all that is over! I’m happy with Steve and I definately think we can be together forever. There is no doubt in my mind. I love him with all my heart and I’ve never meant that more than I do now. He’s so awesome! I’ve never known anyone that has a mind like he does. His morals, his opinions, everything just makes sense. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t agree with him on EVRYTHING, that would must be retarded. He helped me put it together how we are together. He described it as being respectful to each other without being one of those couples where someone asks one of them if they like the colour red, they look at each other before answering. We’re together ALL the time, but I’m never bored of him. I talk to him ALL the time, and we never run out of things to talk about and we never have problems with being sick of each other.

     So let me explain how we know each other. We met at the the horse camp I’ve been going to for years (he was afraid of horses when he came, fancy that, lol) then I decided that I needed somewhere to live with my parents so mad at me, and figured that it wasn’t going to work out with Brad Schappert and Cody, becasue they weren’t even sure if they were still going to follow through with the whole moving in together idea, so I figured, hey, the ranch is also a year round oudoor centre. I asked Rick if I could live out her and if he needed someone else and he really did, so here I am.

     I took Steve just this weekend to meet my family. They seemed to really like him a lot. I’m soooooo glad. My Nanny even said somehting, so that definately means somehting. I’m sooooo happy.

      There is one hting that is really bothering me though….Kayla said something at the party at the bluffs on commencement Friday night. Melissa kissed her new b/f Chris (not the same chris) for the camera jsut as a joke, and kayla said, "my b.f is cheating on me wiht my best friend! Remind you of someone?" Implying the whole fuuking Mark issue!!!!! I thought we established that!!!!! Holy mother of god, we dealt with that issue 2 years ago! I came to visit cuz I haven’t seen the chick in 4 months, and that’s all she has to say. I do’nt care how drunk she was, WHY????? Why do all my friends have to bring up past issues! I thought she trusted me! I told her the truth from the beginning, and all she seems to want to hear is lies, as if that will make her feel better. I told her the truth about what happened and that was that Mark said "IF I wasn’t going out with your best friend, I would so be making out with you right now." NEVER tell anyone ANYTHING! It will ALWAYS gets blown out of proportion!! Somehow it got twisted around that I DID make out with Mark, THREE FREAKING YEARS AGO AND SHE STILL DOESN’T BELIEIVE ME!!! I CAN’T EVEN COME DOWN TO VISIT WITHOUT HEARING ABOUT IT!!!!

         ok, I’m done now. Now the reason I haven’t written in so long is that I forgot my passsword. The email adress I had to get the password sent to expired and I had to find a way to get back into it and I haven’t had time to do it until today.

alrighty, time to go now.