Dreams/Reality

This is what my horoscope says for me today:  Don’t disappear into your own imagination. Instead, make a short coffee date with that sweetie who’s been haunting your dreams.

It’s quite an interesting one for me. For the past few days I have been forever want to relive my dreams because they have been so much more interesting than my regular real life has been lately. However, I don’t really associate with anybody anymore, so I think I’ll just stay here for a bit, I just been down. Not sure quite the reason, but it happens. I’m not really concern with it, just something I have to face the reality of all. Sure, everybody feels this way, but I have been feeling this way off and on for the past ten years of my life. It has gotten as bad as me going to a therapist which was horrible, because she plainly suck. My mom says that it was just a target for her or some sort. My mom believes everything is her fault, although I love her dear, I think she thinks too into things and takes EVERYTHING so serious. It’s hard to joke without her feelings getting hurt of some kind. She was with me and my therapist one time and supposingly I just target her for all my depression, which I don’t recall one bit. I dunno, it seems everybody feels they have some to blame on the reasoning of my life. Who knows, and really who cares. Sigh, off to read for a while..