Craziness

It’s so funny that within a year, so much has happen. It’s crazy where I ended up from this day a year ago. Everything is completely different. I don’t talk to the same people, hang out with the same people, and I’m actually single. People change with time. I like to think that with new ideas/situations, people evolve to fit it all. Change sometimes is good yet could be the worse thing in the world. This day, a year ago, I was already broken up with Mike and was with Jonathan. Now, I don’t talk to Mike at all, and Jonathan, he’s still wants to be with me after all of this time. I just don’t know that if I would change anything if I knew this is how life would be. I know I have grown up though. I know I have mature with situations and people. I guess you learn from the experiences and hope for the best for the future. There are challenges we must overcome, even if it means giving up on things we want and getting hurt by our own self. You can’t regret, but learn to live on. That’s what I’m doing, except I’m just going to give up on guys for a bit. Just forget about how important being in a relationship was for me. I mean, it’s nice and wonderful. Yet I have become my own worse enemy, I give up on my friends for a simple guy who just never lasts with me. So after seeing my mistakes I take over and over again, I’m gonna become a bigger person and grow up and learn. I just hope I can do it. No one believes in me in able to do that and that’s what hurts the worst. People lately, really do suck. At least just sucks that at this moment right now, feels like no one likes me anymore. I feel like after all I seem that I have done, or I at least think I have, it has gotten me no more. I just gotta work on myself and get better with friendships, because it happens everytime. I just gotta have my hope.. Night.