Acceptence

I know you can’t always get what you want, but it would be nice, wouldn’t it? I mean not to sound like a selfish or greedy way, but just in terms of me being happy. I wanna be happy for myself. I am, and I am going to even more. I figure out that the situation that I am in now, it’s not worth it anymore. It’s not making anything better or less. I just wanted to be free from that and not have any second thoughts. That is really how I kept changing my mind, I don’t want any regrets. I don’t want to hurt people, but I think in the end, I hurt the one person who meant the most to me. I just wish they understood but I can understand more that I don’t want to talk to me.

This past summer I have learned more about myself than ever before. In the situations and feelings that I have felt and been in, I realized how vulnerable I have become in wanting someone to want me. I believe some things that weren’t true and continue to let my heart be drown in pity. I can’t allow myself to do that, I gotta stand up for myself. It would be nice to find someone who appreicated me for me. Not for what I can do, just for being me. I think I have, just in matter of letting things progress.

School starts next week, I have been having dreams of missing school and what not, I’m quite scared. It’s def going to be a new change and hopefully a good one as well. I know it’s going to be good for me and I’m hoping I can do my best, I am actually looking forward to it. I know it will be good and I hope to meet lots of people. Someone once told me you can’t lose hope, otherwise you lose life and every good thing about it. I guess that can be true, I just know I can’t give up just yet. I’m not one that quits but then I am one that suffers into getting what she wants, even if in the end, she doesn’t.

Life is an obstacles of constant challenges and able to achieve them all shows your real character and your true self.