The Truth About You

Resentment is at an all-time high.
I don’t hate you because you helped me figure out what the root of my issues were.
But that’s one of the only reasons.

It really fucking blows that, when I decided that I would go out and be vulnerable and open with someone — and jump with "both feet" — that I chose the most untrustworthy person on the planet.

I looked right past the person who deserved it the most to root out the most unhealthy person around me.
This is why I need to get better.

I don’t even feel arrogant.
I feel hurt, I feel angry, I feel insignificant, and I feel ashamed.
But not arrogant. Because pride goeth before a fall.
Because pride is a brick wall preventing love.
Because pride is just a facade for a very deep hurt.

I don’t need your help.
I don’t need your "wise" texts.
I don’t need your approval.
And I don’t need your friendship.

What I need? Is to surround myself with healthy people who love me.
You’re not that,
you never have been,
so… I guess this some fucked up form of goodbye.

"When you lose,
don’t lose the lesson."

I won’t.

Sincerely,
Amanda