sleepless

of all the days to have insomnia;
i close my eyes and my blood starts rushing.
before i was outside in the cold to take the edge off my worry
and i stared up at the stars and i felt so lost, infinitesimal…
it was breathtaking but it made my heart ache fiercely.
i wish i had a way to put these demons to rest, but that’s cheating and I deserve every miserable minute.
doesn’t mean i won’t try to look on the bright side, but fuck,
it gets hard on nights like these.

dominic wouldn’t go down nicely tonight,
spending hours crying and screaming "i’m scared, help me";
he just doesn’t want to sleep in a bed alone,
and i know the feeling.

try number three.

amanda.