Misplaced my Joy

I lost it.
I feel like I’m living my life just to live it and get it over with. Which, in my opinion, is not that great. I should live life and take pride in it. But I guess I feel like I have nothing worth living for.
Sure, I have my friends and my boyfriend, but in the back of my mind, I tell myself that they’ll be better off without me anyway. Not the best outlook in the world, but… it’s something I guess.
I hate this… I should care but I don’t. I don’t care about anything anymore. Sure, I love people, but in context to my own life? To me? Nothing. I just act like it’s all whatever. Like there’s no point. I live my life, I smile, I laugh, I cry and I get angry.
But I’m empty. I bow out. I have my emotions but I don’t truly feel them as I should.
And that’s a problem.
so correction on the title, I misplaced everything but emptiness.
Out
<3 amanda
p.s.    so this is how it feels to just burn out.