I Can Still Feel It

and I doubt I’ll ever forget it. Breathless darkness and your offer to be the shoulder I could cry on, an offer I couldn’t accept. We spoke quietly in the surrounding darkness, and I was struck full force with an epiphany. We laid together in the darkness, and I couldn’t see your face. I couldn’t see you at all, but I knew you were there. I had faith, and I had trust. I could reach out touch your skin, run my fingers over your face. I suppose that’s how it must be a few days time. I must be shrouded in darkness, but if I reach out, I have faith that you’ll be there. That’s all I should need in this world.

You touched a part of my heart last night that I didn’t know was still beating. I’m in tears just thinking about all the things that were said, all the promises that were made, and the sweet seal of a kiss. I might be a sap, and I apologize, but I don’t think anyone has ever reached in far enough to touch not only my heart, but my soul. I have never felt more secure and taken care of. I have never felt more inclined to take care of someone else and attempt to wash away their every worry. You tell me "Don’t Worry, Be Happy", but I can’t. I care too much.

"Just know that no matter where I am, or what I’m doing, I will always love you. I’m not saying that I will always love you like this, but in some way or another, I’ll always love you."

You lacked nothing last night; everything that was said was astute, profound, and much needed. You have a knack for uplifting me, and surprised at your words I was. It was the first time you told me you loved me, in any way, shape, or form.

I’m sorry I have to cry my tears of…whatever they are,
Amanda.

IT WAS YOU
It was you
That showed me who I am
And taught me how to stand
For what I know is real

I was sick of all the pain
Tired of all the shame that I felt
But you showed me a way
To never have a doubt
And always to believe in myself
Now I see

It was you
That showed me who I am
And taught me how to stand
For what I know is real

Now I’m breathin for the first time
And I’m leavin, all this behind
I’ve become, what I am because of you
It was you

I’m so sorry ’bout the ways
ut I can’t take away my past
But you love me anyway
And now I wanna do
Everything for you that I can
Even though it won’t erase
The foolish things that I’ve done
Things that blinded me
But now I see

It was you
That showed me who I am
And taught me how to stand
For what I know is real
Now I’m breathin for the first time
And I’m leavin, all this behind
And taught me how to stand
For what I know is real

So how can I make this up to you
I’ll fight and I’ll push and I’ll strive
Can’t you see

It was you
That showed me who I am
And taught me how to stand
For what I know is real

Now I’m breathin for the first time
And I’m leavin, all this behind
I’ve become, what I am because of you
It was you

I can see the writing on the wall
As time begins to crawl away from me
And I’ve become what I am
Because of you
It was you
12 STONES