Transition Period

 Quote: "Life is one big transition." -Willie Stargell

I’m in between an end and a beginning. It’s an awkward stage, one I’m not quite accustomed to. I have a job in New York City, working for a major cable news station. I live with my parents and sleep in my childhood bedroom every night. I’m adult in the sense that I am in my early twenties, have a job and some direction. I’ve recently been promoted from a freelance employee to full time. My title will change from Production Assistant to Jr. Producer. I’m really going places. I’m sure of it.

Nearly a year ago when I started, I was sure I’d have taken over the company by now. Not literally, but I had figured full time in three months, department change in six months, Associate Producer on popular news program in a year. I am nothing, if not a millennial. It’s a terrible thing really. I am incredibly guilty of stalking the Facebook’s and LinkedIn’s of everyone I graduated with. I track their promotions, their internships and the cities they venture off to. Of course no one’s taking pictures of themselves on the nights they’re home alone because their friends are all working different schedules and they have work in the morning and they’ve been single so long they can hardly grasp the concept of a relationship. Myself included. 

That said, I am gaining confidence. I have worked several breaking news stories, serving as the lone web video producer many a time. Sure, I panicked in the beginning. It’s what I do. But I’m capable now and I believe it.

While I transition from freelance to staff, I am left in limbo with an abundance of free time. I’ve applied to volunteer with the Make a Wish Foundation. I need to be a part of something that’s bigger than me. I’m incredibly self absorbed, complaining about living rent free, working part time at a giant company while friend’s who recently graduated are stuck working as unpaid interns. I’m constantly wanting more and not looking at what’s in front of me. I want to be a part of something bigger, help people who need it. Make someone’s day easier.

Other than that? Not a crazy amount of things have changed since my last update. Nearly a year ago! I’m not sure how I feel about that.

I’m going to write more.

I really mean it.