Captivating

We just got off the phone maybe half an hour ago and it feels like an eternity. Something you said to me really made my heart swell and as I write this I’m still not entirely sure. I can’t let myself enjoy anything without eventually over analyzing it. I think. I dwell. I wanna allow myself to care but it terrifies me not knowing what I truly want from myself or you. I don’t know what the future holds, it’s quite possibly the reason why I am faltering at this discovery.

You ask me why I like you? I love your honesty, your laugh, your understanding and care. You don’t expect things of me and you are patient with me. You seem to accept me for what I am and I really like that. I’ve felt connected to you almost instantly from the moment I met you, I feel that the universe brought you to me with purpose.

The last thing you said to me before ending that phone call bore into my soul because I believe you truly meant it. I cried once we said our goodbyes, I cry as I write this, I am so utterly touched by you. It’s overwhelming because it feels like you know me so deeply already. My heart is in knots, burning in my chest, I do feel something for you but I hinder myself with question.

I want to know that you truly feel this way because it’s real, not because it was built from a lonely place or by my words.

I feel torn in my feelings but I am so grateful that you told me.